joyoflove :)

508

2009-09-20T17:20:00.004+08:00

This post goes to everyone who is reading it especially the ones whom you always backstab your friends.

Why does friends backstab one another? Can you really call yourself 'his/her friend'? What i the definition of friend? A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts. How can you be trusted towards your friend if you backstab him or her? How can your friend believe you again if he or she knows that you're backstabbing him or her? Where is the trust between the both of you? I know friends who backstab one another, behind their backs. I kinda pity them and feel that they are pretty annoying because why do they have to act as friends in front but yet, at the back, they backstab one another. How pathetic is that?

Sometimes I feel that human is evil by nature. But, we can still change. Why must people backstab their friends! I thought they were friends but actually they weren't. They were just acting like friends but bitching about them behind their backs. Complaining and bitching non-stop! Ah why do you people have to be like this! These bitching/backstabbing made me change my point of view towards you people. I'm sorry but I feel that you're just a bunch of bitches. Backstabbing your 'friends'. You'll never know if you're being backstabbed too. Bitches. Hypocrites. Two-sided freaks.

507

2009-09-20T16:32:00.005+08:00

MEMORIES.

506

2009-09-20T01:24:00.001+08:00

Went shopping in ze afternoon w OLM and Mahjong @ Jian's house after that!

505

2009-09-19T02:02:00.001+08:00

Have not been updating my blog since long.
"If there's such things as chances, who's gna give me one?"
Shall try to sleep soon, though I have slept from 7 to 12.30! 5.5hours!

504

2009-09-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

I feel like...
1. Buying oven / pans / cooking tools
2. Going out now
3. Eating ice cream
4. Watching all the movies including NC16/M18/R21 (and no I'm not a perv)
5. Shopping
6. Saving money
7. Kbox
8. Zoo
9. Having long hair

Ok this 9 is under "I feel like..."

503

2009-09-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

Met Ken, Wj and Jc on Friday's night, 12.30am. Hm or is it Saturday's morning? They were drunk. All talking nonsense la. I bet they didn't even know what they were talking about. Dinosaur = Godzilla. Hilarious!

Went to meet Cedric under my house. Headed to TM's Pastamania for lunch. Told Ced that K was my boyf. He laughed and said, "Yeah~ Yeah HAHAHAHHA (and continue amchio-ing)." PHAIL! Walked home alone and decided to sit and think about random stuff @ the sheltered area beside the inline skate court. Saw Samson skating. Hm then Jinlin texted me asking if I would like to play Pool. So I asked what time and who then he told me to call Jh. Met her near the sheltered playground. Walked over to Safra. It's damn bloody far. Met Jinlin and wait for Haoxuan to come. Went up to ask about the table and booked 1 then wait for Jian outside. Er Jian came then we headed to Bowling place. Chilled and chat then we left for Pool. Played a few rounds then went off as Jh needs to be home. But instead, we went to her house to play Mahjong while Hx went home. Left @ 2plusplus. (I'm really sorry, I know you don't like me to be home late, I really am.)

Today, woke up @ 12 and watched tv, slept @ 3plus again. Woke up @ 4plus again because I had a nightmare. I dreamt that I was kidnapped by Ms Arnita. And idk why I got shot in the end. Bathed and went to Prime to get my ingredients for my Spaghetti. Ok fuck it shall not talk about it cause I bought all the ingredients and it tasted yucky :@ I cooked it yet I still have to wash the tools used! &&&& I'm saving money to buy pans and oven and baking tools or wdv tool needed for cooking. Teehee. Ok I took 1 hour to type this.

502

2009-09-11T03:33:00.000+08:00

Hmm went to band and homed after band.

Going to Xueyi's house tml for pasta cooking! Excited! Sounds yummy!

501

2009-09-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

Why am I always the nice one?

Olm, Chun, Ze, Jia and Yu came to surprise me. I was little pissed because I wanted to sleep. They played Mahjong while I used the comp. Started chatting @ 6.30. They left @ 7 and Mum came home @ half past with my dinner. Watched the telly awhile and went into the room to sleep. Woke up by KOKE's message. Changed hurriedly and left for TM. Walked to a busstop and took 293 to Mac. 2stops only. HAHA. Settled down and I told him I wasn't eating. He insisted that I cheated him to eating supper. Lol I told him, "eh let's eat supper!" haha end up I didn't eat because I didnt feel like. Armpit hair. HAHA. Hmmmm WenJun came after that. Their conversations are damnnnnnn funny. LOL. CGL. KOKE doesn't know what's that. Dumb hor. Talked about piercings. He's getting one soon! ^.^ I wna get one too :( Hmm headed home @ 1130.

500

2009-09-08T16:27:00.000+08:00

Is my birthday going to end like this? Fucking pathetic. I thought it was going to be different.

499

2009-09-08T01:27:00.002+08:00

Have you ever felt like you were being misled into liking someone who does not like you, thinking that he/she likes you?

School and only went for POA and Math. Skipped Chem. Went to KFC for lunch then T1 to get what Jamie wna buy. Tm and homed!

Met Xueyi and Jasmine outside my house because I was late and they surprised me w a durian fudge cake. Those rectangular ones haha. They even put candles on them. How sweet. They gave me my pressie and I love it. They knew I needed a wallet somehow...... ^.^ 心有灵犀一点通. HOT PINK HAHA JEALOUS NOT JAMIEK! Hm then went to hang arnd in Mac and they were studying. Did not study because I did not bring anything. Hm met Peng @ Mac's toilet and took bus to inter. Went straight to T1 and done w muaiiiii pedi. Lurvbbesxz it. Peng was super CHORLOR. Tak boleh tahan. Hahaha! The manicurist had to erase her nail polish and redo it thrice. HAHA. Laozy la Peng.

Then went to CS and got tickets for "The Time Traveler's Wife". Then went to have dinner and since we had an hour to go, we went to TM basement. NTUC > Watsons. We were @ Watsons for like damn long and it was alr 9.20 and I didnt know till Kaen said, "yah lah 920 alr what". Then I was super shocked HAHAH. Too excited seeing cosmetics in Watsons. The show is highly recommended! The ending was kinda sad. :( Ok go watch it yourself. Didn't know where to go after that. Airport, but it was damn far. So we went to park instead, otw to park we decided to go to Mac. HAHA. Sat for awhile and then left. Prime > Youghurt > Home sweet home!

498

2009-09-07T02:39:00.002+08:00

Met Jinlin and Kaiwen @ arnd 4 and obviously I was late again. Ooops. Ate Doublecheese Burger and didnt want pickles so KW put cabbage inside. Ate strawberry sundae w super much strawberry slices inside. Nice anot ^.^ Hm left and bussed to TM. Study what? LOL only 3Q of physics HAHA. Hm went arcade w JL as KW went home to change. Saw Rach and CO. Hm then KW came and we went to check timing. Went to CS and arcade again. It was damn funny. HAHAHA. Thn to ticketing booth. Then decide for damn long leh. Dk which show to watch. In the end decided on The Proposal. Hmm not bad. JL is damn annoying lor. :@ Hk leg. Met Kaen after movie and he walked me home. Hang arnd under voiddeck and homed @ 12+. Didnt wna go home but was forced to so I didnt have a choice. Sorry for the crappy post.

So I guess birthdays are like just like a typical day afterall .

497

2009-09-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me.

496

2009-09-06T01:41:00.003+08:00

Met Greg @ TM because I cabbed there though I was late. In the end he was late k! Went to the Open Plaza aircon place and chilled there. Chat kinda many things. Hm... then went to....

CS > Cinema booth > Arcade > TM > Phin's (to sit) > Kaen > CS > Buy ticket > First floor > Buy drink > Theatre > Walk home > Lift > Toilet > Comp

Ok guess that summarizes my whole thing.

495

2009-09-05T19:23:00.000+08:00

Wooo I slept @ 6.30pm last night. Woke up @ 11.30 and slept @ 12+ again. Pig or what? Hahaha.
Woke up @ 9 today. Watched tv awhile, morning called Kaen then watch Doraemon and tv again.
Bathed @ 10 and late again, ooooops.
Walked to CC and started. Hmmmmm hardworking? :D
Hehe. Helped E6 to paint their nails (HAD FUN!)
Then their teacher not happy so I nvr help them alr.
Went back to E5 stall and helped.
Walked arnd asking ppl to buy. GOT HIGHHHHHHH!
HADDDDDDDD FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!
DAMNNNNN FUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!
Went to Mac after the thing end and saw Xueyi and Jasmine studying.
Sat down awhile cause v tired. Homed after that!
Gna meet Greg for G-Force laaaata.

494

2009-09-01T17:05:00.002+08:00

50questions.

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
5. No stress and simple minded.

Which is worse, failing or never trying?
Never trying. Who knows I might pass.

If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
Because we dont have a choice.

When it's all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
Yes.

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
Equality.

If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Not sure.

Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
None. I'm doing nothing.

If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
Finding my love ones. Enjoying life.

To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
???

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
Doing things right.

You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?
Debate and tell them how your friend is like.

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
Treasure life.

Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Yes yes yes, would even die for them.

Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
Yes.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
Wasting my life away not doing anything.

How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
Because everyone is different.

What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?
Studying, lazy.

Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
Yes........ I think I am.

If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
America, they speak good English.

Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
No and no.

Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
Joyful simpleton. I hate to worry.

Why are you, you?
Because I am me, the special me.

Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
No.

Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
A good friend moves away. We'll still be in contact.

What are you most grateful for?
Not sure.

Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
Lose my old memo.

Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
Yes.

Has your greatest fear ever come true?
No.

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
Primary5..... Hm..... Being 2nd last in class. No.

What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?
None.

At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
Friends. Close friends.

If not now, then when?
When?

If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
The effort I've spent.

Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
No.

Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
Because love causes problems.

Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
No.

If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
Yes definitely.

Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
More work I enjoy doing. Because it'll never be enough.

Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
More than a 100.

When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
Not sure.

If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
Everyone.

What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Being alive means living. But truly living means living fully.

When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
From the start.

If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
Because we have learnt from it.

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
Nothing.

When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
Long ago.

What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
Most things. No.

In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?
Yes.

Decisions are being made right now. The question is:
Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
Making decisions for myself.

493

2009-09-01T16:29:00.002+08:00

Inner Beauty VS Outer Beauty

"When we hear the word beauty the first thing that comes into your mind is one person’s physical appearance, particularly the face. We often overlook one of the most important aspects of an individual which is one’s inner beauty.

But what is inner beauty? Let us define the two words first. Inner is defined as situated farther inside; deeper; relating to the mind or spirit. And beauty is defined as a quality or a combination of qualities that delights the senses or appeals to the mind.
We can now define inner beauty as beauty situated farther inside the mind or spirit.
In this world today, most people are shallow and oftentimes overlook one person’s inner beauty. Inner beauty radiates outside. And can make a not-so-pretty or not-so-good looking person into a beautiful individual, physically. Inner beauty can be composed of the following delighting qualities: positive disposition or outlook in life, kindness, sensitivity, tenderness or compassion, creativity and intelligence.

We have mentioned people being shallow earlier, because most species use physical traits to attract mates or partners. But some people claim that they solely rely on one person’s inner beauty. Some people say that it can’t be just physical traits all the time. Though it’s still and can be important to some people. Because in searching for a lifetime partner, inner beauty is essential. "
- http://successfulselfimprovement.com/lifestyle/inner_beauty.html

492

2009-09-01T16:23:00.002+08:00

Went back to PCS yesterday and kinda had fun. Because I just had fun. Went to TM with Axel and Eve.

Cab > Cs > Tm > Yoshinoya > Ntuc > Lan

Saw Binny and Kaen in lan shop. Hmm..... Played Dota but Idk how to VS comp. So played Cs. Engrossed w ze game. Ohyeah, Joy met us @ Tm so we went lan tgt. Then @ lan, Din came. Homed @ 6.

Today,
woke up > tv > comp.
Gna study Math later!

491

2009-08-31T10:48:00.001+08:00

Skipped school today because I think it will be boring and a waste of time. Ooops. Gna meet Paupau then to P.C.S. because of the gathering thing. Crap. Hope will catch a movie soon! :( I've been wanting to watch a muuuuvee since....... 3782years ago. Hah! Slept @ half past 5 last night and woke up @ half past 6! Amazingly, I'M NOT TIRED NOR SLEEPY NOW!!! HAHAHAHA.

Ok gta go out arnd 12. Cabbing to P.C.S. cause I'm damn lazy to walk.

490

2009-08-30T17:17:00.000+08:00

Date w Peng on 7! (K)

489

2009-08-30T14:15:00.000+08:00

Woke up > Tv > Comp

(Ahhhh what a slacker life)
When can I start studying!!!!!!!!!!
Hate myself for not starting when exams are nearing!

Eating my nasi lemak now. I haven eat my ingredients I'm alr damn full.

488

2009-08-28T19:42:00.000+08:00

MONEY MONEY COME TO MAMA!

487

2009-08-26T17:31:00.000+08:00

I'm glad I'm done w all things :) Luckily I'm out of it. Otherwise I'll be hurt further. HAHA. Ok anyway, was SICK on Monday and Tuesday. Have MC one ok! Hm......

Met Kaen for study on Saturday night and walking me home. (WHY DONT BUY BANANA D: HAHAHHA)

Met Zainul on Sunday night for Geylang Serai,
Kaen for walking me home (then I walked him to bus stop),
Chinchin for accompanying me because I didn't wna be home alone. Reached home @ 1.30am.

Skipped school on Monday because I was having cough, sore throat, fever and flu. Poor thing anot! Home alone leh!
I think I stayed home ze whole dayz. Ok, I went to see the doc and had a 2days MC.
Hai.... EOY coming leh. But bobian lor, sick leh, no choice.
Went to Pastamania @ 9.30 because I was hungry and I felt like eating baked rice.
Reached there @ 9.45 and left @ 10. Fast not. Went to the cinemas to find out that they were closed. -_- Great.
Walked home 10.30. The park was definitely scary. Or am I just paranoid?
Went to Cheers, get water and headed home.
Decided to sit at the void deck because the breeze was cool and relaxing.
Sat till 11plusplus. Went up, bathed and watch tv.

Stayed home till afternn.
Met Olm after her CCA.
Then met Kaen to accompany him for his dinner.
Then walked me home. Asked me to bring Gigi down. And he's super jealous of Gigi because she's damn cute, like me.
He played w my dog. Nvr see dog before what. HAHA. Play, more like torture.
Homed @ can't remember. 8?

Gna meet Jasmine ltr for stdying. Studying leh!!!! Ok actually I'm gna complete my DnT.

486

2009-08-23T01:18:00.001+08:00

I'm sick. Flu, blocked nose, and my throat hurts. This sucks. And I miss B.

485

2009-08-22T16:43:00.000+08:00

Few days ago, I was thinking on how B would celebrate my bd for me, what surprises he would give me.
But I guess none of this would happen.

484

2009-08-22T15:52:00.002+08:00

I was supposed to meet Binny @ 1 but @ 12.52nn he texted me not to come anymore because his mum is gna fetch him. I have alr prepared. Bathed, changed, everything. I was angry. I had nowhere to go so I took 291 to the market area thinking if I should have a manicure session. Then when I reached that stop, I saw Rafi and Haniff. Told Rafi to accompany me, he agreed. But with a deal in exchange. Hm, alighted beside school and bid farewell to Haniff. Cabbed down to Binny's place. Met him w Rafi. I was scared then.

Rafi came up halfway. Binny rolled his eyes and was unhappy.

I still love you, but you didn't have time for me. Everything's more impt than me. Even bb. How can it be? I was probably last in your list. I miss you, now. I can still remember your face, your hugs, your kisses, your messages, your words. Love you. But I believe time can heal all!

483

2009-08-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

School today.
>Couldn't wake up!!!! -_-
>Lessons
>Screwed-up canteen performance
>D&T
>Assembly

How boring can my life be everyday :(
Loner no?

482

2009-08-17T19:11:00.000+08:00

BEIJING (AFP) - - China's giant panda could be extinct in just two to three generations as rapid economic development is infringing on its way of life, state media said on Monday, citing an expert at conservation group WWF.

WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY!!!!!!!!!! IRRITATING. Pandas are like super cute animals :(

MAY PANDAS LIVE LONG!

481

2009-08-17T17:02:00.000+08:00

Caught Orphan w Chinchin and Lili yesterday! Nice, but thrilling! And I was watching okkkkkkkkkk! :@ Homed @ hm... 8plus. Thanks Chinchin for sending me home! (actually is 顺路 lor!) HAHAHA.

Couldn't wake up in the morning cause slept @ 1last night. Damn tired. Despite being vvvv tired, I didn't sleep in class hehe. Physcis TA tml! Gna study today, I guess..........

480

2009-08-14T19:37:00.001+08:00

Went studying w Berlyn @ mac last night. And I think Berlyn and I made Ryan awkward because he was waving, I think to us cause there wasn't other ppl arnd that. He was waving "bigly". Then B and I stared @ each other, thinking who was he waving to. We then turned back and look @ him because we were like, "????". I think he felt embarrassed then he turn away. LOL. And a group of boys was staring @ Kristie!!! I tried telling her but I dont think she understand so yeah....

School was kinda okkkkk today. MY RETEST FOR TINGXIE GOT 8.5 OVER 10. FROM 0 LEHHHHH! Not bad right hehe. Ok yeah tts it. OHOH I CUT MY HAIR YTD AND IT LOOKS LIKE CRAP -_- OMG. -_-

479

2009-08-10T21:01:00.002+08:00

Woke up and texted Jl if I can go w them to study. Bathed and prepared. Saw.......... 2E5'08 guy. Well, he was meeting Jamie and co for studying. I'm w Olm Jl Cym. Haha. Actually we only studied for 10mins la, THEY KEEP TALKING! Btw Jl left damn early. Went to Pool @ 3. Alot of ahpeks. -.- Homed @ 5+!

13days.

Ok I kinda miss Huahua now. AHAHAH. Long time no see each other:( Btw the 13days nthg to do w Huahua. I was randomly changing my dp then I put section now then I miss Huahua. No wink @ him during band. No disturbing him during band. No talking to him during band. No smacking him @ times. No stares @ him. No asking him to sit properly. No more Huahua :(

478

2009-08-09T13:09:00.001+08:00

Yesterday...

>Woke up @ 9?
>Watched tv
>Used computer
>Bathed to meet Binny
>He said, "nvm" so forget it
>Pissed up because I have finished bathing
>Used computer
>Sms Rahrah for movie marathon
>Meet 3.30pm
>Late (oooops)
>Walked to CS
>Bought ticket for "Where got Ghost"
>Laugh until almost die, show damn funny
>Went to Food Culture for dinner
>Ate some mango pudding which wasn't great
>Chat
>Walked around
>Went to buy tix and nachos
>Officially broke!!!!!
>Went into the theatre
>Started eating and watching
>Cute boy and dog and bird (no place for Ol' man HAHA)
>Came out @ 9plus for Binny
>Talked fr arnd 5mins
>He's having fever, sekali Influenza A, NOOOOOOO
>Went back in
>Keep talking to Rahrah
>Laugh and laugh and laughed
>Came out
>Damn full because I finished my nachos
>Not as nice @ Gv's
>Walked arnd Tm and Cs though the shops are mostly closed
>Watched people play arcade
>He wanted to treat me another movie because I was broke, but no thanks :)
>Walked home
>Decided to slack @ Mac
>Stayed till 1plus
>Waited for bus w Rahrah
>No bus because it's alr past 1
>He decided to cab
>Waited for cab
>Homed @ 1.20am
>Texted Binny
>Text Rahman
>Sleep!

Today...
>Woke up @ 9.30am to watch my Doraemon
>Watch tv still....
>Text Rahrah and Binny
>Get well soon Binny! :)
>Online
>Momo come, brought lunch, hehe

477

2009-08-08T14:53:00.001+08:00

Yesterday.....

Woke up and texted Binny and 5.50am, which he texted me too, @ the same time! HAHA.
>Walked to school @ 610
>Reached band room @ 620
>Told everyone to prepare and set up instru by 7
>Warmed up
>Went down
>Performed (like shitz)
>Back to band room
>Got scolded
>Cried (thanks Rina baby)
>Went back to class for 5mins
>Hall, performance by NE
>Interclass competition
>3e5 3rd in level (Y)(Y)(Y)
>Our class had a fight
>Back to class
>Home to change and prepare
>Meet Olm
>Mrt
>Bugis
>Mugis street
>Mum, $50 HAHAHAHA
>Tampines Mall
>Home @ 6

"Today at the supermarket I saw a middle-aged man looking at tampons. He had a box of chocolates in the other hand. Guys like that GMH."
Gives me hope.

Ooooh btw, I dreamt of attending Peiqi's funeral last last night. My house's void deck had Niwa Sushi(?)! HAHA WTF.

476

2009-08-08T13:32:00.001+08:00

Is basketball more impt than me?

475

2009-08-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

I'm upset Idk why. It feels that I'm just being too nice to you. It's like you're taking me to granted. I hate it. I love you, I really do.

p/s: I hate being taken for granted.

474

2009-08-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

I KNEW IT LOR! THE THAI GUY FROM 国记交意所IS OUR TRUMPET TUTOR LOR!!!! HAHAHAHAHHAHA.

473

2009-08-04T20:22:00.000+08:00

School was super boring today. DnT was fun! Drawing~ I slept throughout the whole MT. Oops. Oh yeah, tml got POA. Sian. Band was fun. I was a little stress at the end because I cant conduct well :( Syahrin came! Riiiiiiina too! :) Syahrin became a little tanned. He looks so thin that he would break soon :( Jealous. HAH. Went to Bluesea and saw BB people. Bought bubble tea then go home alr.

I feel a little better now. I slept @ half past 2 last night. Damn tired this morning. Shall sleep early tonight. Btw, my p's here!

472

2009-08-03T21:02:00.000+08:00

I'm just dreaming of the usual things every night.

Studies, Mr Tong, Mdm Umi, Ms Arnita, Dad, band. Am I afraid or what? I feel like I'm under pressure. I'm afraid of studies. I'm afraid of Mdm Umi and Mr Tong. I'm afraid that the band might fall. I'm afraid. I'm just afraid. But, what am I really afraid of?

I dreamt that MrT and MdmU scolded me for not doing a good job in being a Band Major. I dreamt that Ms Arnita and Dad came knocking on my door, asking why am I failing all my subjects. What, am I afraid of? Studies. Band. Studies. Band. Studies. Band. These two kept ringing in my head. I can't seem to get them out of my head. Yet I can tell noone about it. I hide my feelings in me. Myself. But yet, idk who I can share them with. I can only tell people about my friends, family, but have I told anyone about my true problems? Problems that are really bugging me all day and night. It seems like I can trust no one with my feelings, my problems. It's hidden in me which I can seem to tell no one.

My burden. It's not really counted as a burden. It's more of a responsibility. My responsibility. Am I just being too stress? Or am I giving myself too much stress for me to bear?

Band, studies, band, studies, band, studies, band, studies, band, studies, band, studies, band, studies, band, studies, band, studies, band, studies.

471

2009-08-02T20:46:00.000+08:00

I swear I am having a headache now, and I feel like vomiting. My period isin't here either. What's wrong w me?
Mum said, "Luckily you dont have a boyf, otherwise I will think you pregnant".
Ahhhhhh crap. I feel nausea.

470

2009-08-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

I fucking hate my comp now. Bloody pissed w da comp.

p/s: I know I have to have trust in you

469

2009-08-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

I fucking hate my comp now. Bloody pissed w da comp.

468

2009-08-01T19:07:00.001+08:00

It takes 5years to gain someone's trust,
but it can also take 5minutes to lose trust on a person.

True no? Idk if I can trust you. You made me dissapointed. Half of my heart tells me to have trust in you, while the other half thinks the opposite. Idk what to do, I don't wna ask. :(

467

2009-08-01T12:26:00.001+08:00

Then at a point of my life, it seemed like: "the least interested i am to a guy, the more interested he is in me. The more i care about him, the least he'll care. "

In other words... "if you like him more than he likes you, you'll get dumped by him". "if you dont like him as much as he likes you, he'll go crazy over you."

True no?

Meeting Olm for library @ 2plus. Gna borrow more books :)

466

2009-07-30T21:37:00.000+08:00

Why do I feel so negative @ times :(

465

2009-07-30T18:11:00.000+08:00

Haven't come online since Monday? HAHA.

Maths TA is a total goner for mua. I only know how to do the last Q. Pray hard it'll be correct. Hope MsA wouldn't call Dad, he sucks. Hm.. School's alright everyday :)

THE CLASS IS FUCKING NOISY I SWEAR. I ALWAYS WANT TO SECRETLY CURSE THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE CONTINUOUSLY ASKING PEOPLE TO SHUT UP AND AFTERTHAT THEY'LL BE TALKING SO LOUDLY. AND THOSE WHO TALKS LIKE THEIR VOICE CAN TRAVEL 10M AWAY YET HIS OR HER FRIEND IS JUST OPPOSITE HER LETS SAY 50CM. WTF. SUPER ANNOYING AND IRRITATING. JUST TALK SOFTER LA NOT LIKE THEY ARE 10M AWAY FROM YOU. TOTALLY PISSING ME OFF. I MISS SCHOOL FROM TUESDAY TO FRIDAY LAST WEEK. :@ THE CLASS IS SUPER NOISY FOR THE WHOLE DAY (EXCEPT MS ARNITA'S LESSONS!) AND EVERYONE CANT SEEM TO BE QUIET. NOT SAY I'M RELATIVELY QUIET, BUT @ LEAST I TALK SOFTER THAN YOU GUYS. OMGGG. OK ENOUGH OF THE RANTINGS. GOODBYE. :@

464

2009-07-27T17:41:00.001+08:00

Blogger's not alright yet, damned! It's super annoying.

School alright today. We kinda had 3hours of free period HAHA. Had Math remedial after school and I swear it's damn pathetic. Only less than 10 attended. Olm kept bullying Brother Hole. :( She kept asking him not to act cute. Even if he asks a Q, it's acting cute to Olm. Irritating anot! I think I'm super scared of Mr Fadhly now because Idk why hahaha. Buden he's ok la today.

My hand had a friction tear I think. And I was complaining to everyone today. I swear it hurts lor :( My middle finger :(

p/s: don't take me for granted plz

463

2009-07-26T12:21:00.000+08:00

Fuck Blogger, ugh!

Ok slept @ 6 and woke up @ arnd 10. Hm... Pro no? Well, I don't know why I woked up so early and well, I've got nothing to do now. Nothing! Sian to da max. Am meeting Faris and Xy for blading later though I'm a little tired because I didn't have enough sleep, but, I think I'll be alright. :)

Life's pretty good now.
But though I'm smiling all the time, I not all-the-time happy.

462

2009-07-26T05:31:00.000+08:00

Oki I'm gna sleep now. Xiaxue's really pretty haha. I like her character too. Ok wan an.

5.32am
GOSH IT'S LATE.

461

2009-07-26T05:10:00.000+08:00

TIMECHECK : 5.10am

HAHHAHAA IT'S WAS PAST MIDNIGHT AND I'M NOT ALSEEP. Been watching Xiaxue's Guide to Life and Chick VS Dick. HAHHAA. I swear Paul is really cuteeeeee hahahahah. Don't really like Kaykay :( Well, it's just some self-opinions :) I still dislike her now. HAHA. Meeting Xueyi for blading/cycling tml @ 2. Shall go to sleep real soon! But I still have Xiaxue's Guide to Life Extras to watch. Shall sleep after that. :)

p/s: PAUL'S REALLY CUTE!!! Oops.

460

2009-07-25T23:01:00.000+08:00

Meet Binny in the afternoon, walked around and sent him home.
Gna meet Xueyi tml for rollerblading. Hope Chunsiong will go so there'll be more people.
And Angel too.

:)

458

2009-07-25T11:23:00.002+08:00

Shall not eat supper anymore! Am getting fatter now. Cried real hard last night because Knight 'died' :@ He's superrrrrr cute. Even after the show I was still crying. Knight's SO CUTE HAHAHA. Ok.... meeting Binny later on. :)

p/s: I really feel like slapping my dog because she's super noisy! :@:@:@:@:@

457

2009-07-24T18:06:00.002+08:00

Why isint Blogger fixed!

School today sucked because Xxx asked me, "Eh Kelly, why you so fat ah?" You think I wna be fat? Thanks for spoiling my mood eh. Great......

I know I shouldnt care about what people say but these comments make me feel really negative about myself.

456

2009-07-23T23:55:00.003+08:00

OH MY FUCK WHAT IS WRONG WITH BLOGGER &!#(*$)(*#^$ I'm so pissed because Blogger's posting page is disfigured -_-

Didnt attend school today because I was rather tired, plus headache and flu. Hm.....

Btw, Binny came to find me after his school. And while buying bubbletea(the one near SOKA), a woman came running with her son in her arms looking for a doctor. His chin was bleeding. We just walked passed her (she was in the clinic), then I turned to Binny and told him that we should help her to carry her son because Binny, is obviously stronger than her and is a guy, and she's a female, rather thin too. Binny helped her carry her son to another clinic because the one before I don't know why they couldnt be there. Hehe I felt damn happy after that. Binny's hands numb cause he used his elbow area to carry him instead of upper arm... Haiyo.... I still feel happy now somehow. :) The woman was really grateful, but overall, it was nothing great though.

Meeting Binny tml again! He's coming to look for me hehe. Ok, I'm going to school tml. Only 15people turned up for class today. Hm... will it be 10 tomorrow? HAHAHA. Cool right, 10 only. Wan an zai jian! :D

454

2009-07-22T21:43:00.001+08:00

Went to this xxx's blog and she's super thin. Damned I'm jealous. I hate being fat.

453

2009-07-22T21:22:00.003+08:00

Blogger's still having a problem. Damned. Shall start writing my letter of having myself excused from P.E later. Well, P.E. just sucks to me. Ok not P.E., but just 2.4km. Damned, I really hate 2.4 to the core of the max. Gna sleep soon because I'm kinda tired.

Tired.

452

2009-07-22T18:47:00.002+08:00

What is wrong with Blogger!
:@ Damn it. School today was alright. Went to the library w Olm after school. Borrowed 3books. Hope I'll read it! Yes I can! *It's all in da mind*

451

2009-07-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

Typing like this is super pathetic. Everything look's so messy in this page now. Everything's everywhere. But who cares..... Btw, this is for Ade baby. :)

Don't be upset alright. I'm still here. I don't usually say mushy stuff like this but I really wna let you know I do care. Don't broad over it too much. If you think she's not worth then don't bother anymore. Why would you wna make yourself upset when you can be happy, right? Cmon, best friends walk in when the whole world walks out. If she's isin't there when you need her, she isin't a good friend. I'm not breaking any friendship up, but I'm a experienced listener cause I listen to people's problems. Plenty of them. You should decide yourself, to let it go, or to try to salvage it. Both take time, and it takes two hands to clap. Take it slowly ok... Don't be so sad. Cheer up k. Love you always!

Love you,
Kel P.

450

2009-07-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

Blogger's having a fucking problem. Pissed.
Bye.

449

2009-07-21T00:03:00.003+08:00

At last Blogger's ok. Wait so long alr :@ Slept @ 2 last night therefore explain my tireness today. -8people didn't attend school today.
-Amir is suspected to be down w H1N1.
-Cym went home soon after.
-Rushed to copy Math during MT.
-CME damn boring.
-HARRYPOTTER after school though we were supposed to go home.
-Sat beside CK.
-AaronY totally funny to da max.
-YJL damn funny, kena bullied.
-Tahan my pee for 2hours+.
-Bladder almost explode HAHA.
-"Eastspring de, stand up hor!"
-Had a great laugh in the theatre.
-Walked around in TM w J and Sucka.
-Homed @ 7.
-Played FFS since reached home till now.
-Addicted, totally!

448

2009-07-19T10:56:00.002+08:00

Last night, after I reached home, I continued my FFS. HAHAHA. I'm now 10m! :) Had a great time snatching Guoqiang and Stepharina. They said that I was fast hehe. Snatching 2people @ a time is not easy LOL. Ken la! I could have gotten Nana alr! :@

Oki enough of FFS. Gna meet Rara tonight for dinner @ Bedok! Shall do my maths hw l8r. And try to start on DnT report base on my memory because the papers are w LionelChin!

447

2009-07-18T22:36:00.002+08:00

Met Binny @ 1, and I cabbed there again. 5bucks only because uncle forgot to switch on the meter. Hehe. Went to have lunch @ LJS then sent him home.

Played FFS for the whole day. It was sosososososo funny to see them play against each other. Gq got pissed off and he was like, "TMD" because Rara kept buying me. Hehe. Damn funny. Aw Peng's boyf is damn selfish. Buy Peng for 1minute alr he snatch back alr HAHAHA.

Forced Chinchin to buy me. Stingy selfish Chinchin. Btw, Chinchin and I went for dinner. Met @ 7+ then walked to KFC. Saw his friends there. Wdv. I took a veryyyy long time deciding on what to eat because I didn't want to dirty my fingers. Chinchin ate Bandito. After he finished eating his Banditto, I decided to eat Banditto too. :) Chunjing gave me an additional popcorn chicken. Hm... Mine cost $4.05 (with popcorn chicken) while Chinchin's cost $4.50. Why ah.... HAHA! He didn't believe Chunjing was my friend la dumb. Gay boy LOL. He was damn funny. Couldn't stop laughing. He told me a secret. LOL. I ate damn slow, him la keep making me laugh. Damn lame. He said tt his Bandito wasn't nice so I told him tt, "eh i told chunjing tt your bandito not nice so she gave you this in return". And he believed LOL. Shen jing bing.

Lent him da extra phone and homed @ half past 9! Bought my MEIJI.

446

2009-07-18T10:06:00.002+08:00

Had a nightmare. Shall only elaborate on 1part....

Xueyi and I was going to watch a movie. We then saw a small angmoh boy. When he turned, his whole face was black. We then started seeing ghost everywhere. When we were in the bus, I texted Jasmine. Then Jasmine replied. I was suppose to meet Binny then he said he was in Tm/T1 so Xueyi asked me to go her dad's office w her. When we reached, Xueyi's brother and sister(LOL) was killing her dad. Xueyi joined in. HAHA. Stupid dream. Then idk why suddenly Faris and Xueyi in my house. I asked wher is Jasmine then Faris took out Jasmine's phone. I was shocked and angry because I thought that Faris killed Jasmine too. But instead, he took her spare phone. HAHA! Damn stupid la the dream. And scary. VERY SCARY.

445

2009-07-18T00:41:00.003+08:00

I forgot to take the DnT paper from Lionel. Aiiiiz sian to the max.

School was very average, like the same ol' usuals. Damn shit. Boring. Hm...
I kinda love band today. Though it was boring but.... I still kinda had fun. (Contradicting eh) But yeah, I love to disturb the Sec1s la. Hahaha! Gave out all the sweets too, and the only box of Dove, had 16 in them. I have it to the Sec3s and they can have 2 each. Well, I told them to be nice and give 1bar to their junior..........

And some really gave 1 of it to their junior! I was damn happy to see them sharing. Like exchanging sweets and stuff. The moment was like, "ahhhh~ what a happy band :)". I was elated! The scene was heartwarming.

444

2009-07-15T17:56:00.003+08:00

I feel so happy that my blog has a new skin. :)

Gna start doing the DnT report soon,
after Lionel passes me the papers.

I AM TELLING MYSELF,
"I AM NOT LAZY!"
.........
Well, everything is just in the mind.

443

2009-07-14T19:29:00.004+08:00

Couldn't seem to wake up this morning! :@ Feeling damn tired every morning leh. Damn annoying. Like kena forced to go school. Yeah, DnT was fun, as usual. I damn scared to use the sanding machine. Like my finger/hand will kena sand anytime HAHA. I damn guniang one what what to do. Girlie leh~~~~ Me likey. Maths cfm die alr the test. Haha. Had Chem remedials thingy then CCA council. Took badge and went back to remedials.

Ok anyway, band was average today. We only discussed on how to improve the band. We, the excos, also had a meeting w MrTong. I voiced out what I thought of. Btw, I took out all my courage and told MrT that he was kinda fierce to the Sec1s. HAHA. Alot of guts canz. Went to KFC and had dinner. Zinger. Long time no eat. Olm and co was there. Went to buy shoes because of the CCAC. 15bucks leh! :( My $$$ flew away!!! She then walked me home. Nice anot! My friend what :D Homed aftertt! I think I saw a cat masturbating on the way home -_- Wdv, okkkkki bye!

Gna public my blogggz now!

442

2009-07-12T15:53:00.004+08:00

*Deleted this post because it looked ugly in the webpage itself.

441

2009-07-12T15:38:00.004+08:00

Oh btwbtwbtw,
there's so many movies I wna catch!
Haunting is Connecticult(?), Obsessed, Love of Siam, HarryPotter(for leisure only), Final Destination!

440

2009-07-12T15:34:00.003+08:00

Going gym later, I'll be hardly online these days as I'm freaking lazy hahaha. Plus coming online waste my time. Gbye! =P

439

2009-07-11T11:38:00.004+08:00

It has been a really long time since I've come online. 4days leh! Not bad right. I kinda dislike using ze comp now because I feel that I am wasting my time but I should be studying, NOT WATCHING TV! Argh.

I've been doing homeworks now. :) Good girl anot. Hehe. But some I've been copying from, Olm- which is copy from Jinlin, which is from Wenhan I think. And Ayu. Hehe thanks much leh. School's been boring these day. Damn boring. I've been passing Math Tests! :D:D:D HAHAHA.

Band is damn boring, EVERY PRACTICE! I hate the attendence. Out of 50+, there was only 20. Not even half. Wtf is this. Why is noone helping me? Why is everything my fault? Firstly, noone's helping me that's why. I'm handling everything myself. The attendance, upcoming events, plus I have my studies! Yet, I'm doing everything alone. Some Sec1s/2s are such selfish people that they don't think for us, or rather, me. What shall I do? There's sososo many things to settle now. Our attendance, progressing state, events, attitude, band tee. AHHHHHHH~ I really cried my eyes out because I felt stress. I've got so many things to do! Calling ups the section leaders. Can they really feel what I'm going through now?

438

2009-07-07T21:19:00.009+08:00

I'm pissed/angry/upset now because..........

437

2009-07-06T10:08:00.003+08:00

Is it just my moodswings? Or what caused it?

436

2009-07-03T22:11:00.003+08:00

I went bloghopping and I hopped till Xijuan's blog. I read her posts and I saw this...

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving fiance.
He is always there for her.
Blind girl said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her fiance.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to the blind girl and then she can see everything, including her fiance.
Her fiance asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"
The girl was shocked when she saw that her fiance is blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her fiance walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to girl saying.
"Just take care of my eyes dear."

Moral: This is how human brain changes when the status changed. Only few remember what life was before, and who's always been there even in the most painful situations.

435

2009-07-03T21:53:00.002+08:00

Still, I hate being fat and....
Am meeting darl tml.

434

2009-07-03T20:20:00.004+08:00

Binny came to find me in the morning @ 6.55am. See me 15minutes also shiok. Haha! Went to school and school suckz, as usual. I obtained a 1 out of 40 for the chemical formula test. Oi 1 leh! Jinlin got 3. He was showing off to me. Oooh btw we changed our places. I'm beside Ayu now. :) She's kinda quiet though. Lionel and Claudia is behind me. Noisy you know! Hahah!

Went home to bathe w Olm and met Binny and Camille. Olm was accompanying me. Camille has became veryyyy pretty and lady-like. Hhaha after awhile they left and we went to T1. Walked around. I was damn tired. Went to his house area then chat and homed @ 4!

433

2009-07-02T20:07:00.004+08:00

It's been a long time since I updated my blog. I'm just too busy watching tv. :) School's alright these days, I'm hardworking now. Just that I don't like POA. Opps. Haha. I dont understand any single shit in POA. Even Baby hatez POA. Screw POA :P

432

2009-06-28T21:05:00.003+08:00

For a moment,
I forgot......

431

2009-06-24T19:31:00.003+08:00

Am still rotting @ home. Hvn been out today. Will not be out too. :) Aint I a good girlllz?

I always feel like...
1-Whacking my sister/mum/dog.
>Jac is freaking selfish.
>Mum snores freaking loudly all night. :@
>Gigi barks freaking loudy, which annoyes me alot.
2- Studying! But I just can't, idk why. No motivation.
3- Exercising. Gta lose da fattts.
4- Watching a movie alone. I'm not weird. I think it might be fun!

Now, I feel like...
1- Going for band practices. : I miss band.
2- Shopping, but I have no money.
3- DINNER! I'm hungry :(
4- Whacking my principal, for cancelling our campz due to H1N1.
5- Secretly cursing whoever who said that "SCHOOL WILL BE RESUMED AS USUAL".
6- Watch a movie, now.

AHHHHHH, so many things I wna complete. I need some motivation! I miss band!

Things I need to do now : Wash and hang the damn clothes. :@

430

2009-06-24T15:09:00.002+08:00

Btw, I have a ulcer on my..... inner middle lips and the bottom. The lower part of the smiley. and it hurts. :(

429

2009-06-24T13:15:00.005+08:00

Slept @ 1 last night, couldn't sleep because of mumsy's snoring. Totally pissed me off and I shouted, "OHHH MY GODDDDDDDD!!!!!". Damn pissed. Berlyn texted me @ 4, which woke me up :/ I fell back to sleep again, so it's ok.

Woke up @ 8 because Binny replied me. Couldn't really go back to sleep.

428

2009-06-23T23:10:00.007+08:00

Camp's cancelled due to H1N1. Great...... -_-

Shan't explain bout ytd. Skip to today. Charis called and I was sleep talking LOL. I kept "ya"-ing her. Because I couldn't hear what she was saying. She told me to meet @ TP and I said, "HUH WHAT TT!?!?!" I couldn't hear what she was saying haha. Prepared and went over to TP.

Waited for Xueyi, Faris and Chunsiong then took 15 to Parkway. Walked around while waiting for Charis and Cym. Walked to ECP and rented rollerblades. I didn't want to roll/blade. :( Later if fall embarrassing. LOL. Btw, Chunsiong fell 5times. Or 4. SO FUNNY! Heng I didn't fall. :) Didn't reach the end because we, Xueyi and I, were beginners. And we're slow. But we slowly caught the hang of it! PRO ANOT YOU ALL SAY! Yeah, then we went to return the blades and a spider came onto me. WL. Spiders are disgusting. Went to Mac for lunch and chilled for long. Went to the beach to enjoy the wind and sand. Lol. Yeah, and water. Haha. Bus-ed home. Feeling tired now..... Maybe I'm going to sleep soon.

I feel that you don't love nor like me. Or am I just thinking too much?

427

2009-06-21T16:22:00.002+08:00

Did not online for the past 2days, being online is so boring. Other than playing my Bejewelled Blitz. I cannot remember what I did on Friday, but I remembered about yesterday.

20June
Woke up @ 10 yesterday because I had to meet Faris and Co @ 11. And I was late, because I was lazy to get out of bed, plus I took my time to bathe and all. Saw Aishah, Felice and Yumin. Faris was late too. Walked to the market area then we had lunch @ KFC because Faris wanted aircon. I couldn't finish my meal so I ate very slowly. Sorry guys, kinda kept you guys waiting. Hm, then we went to the Prime to get choclates. Faris and Xueyi got this lucky draw thingy and they had to staple the receipt with the lucky draw. When we went to the Value shop, I suddenly remembered about the receipt and asked them about it. HAHAHA. Too bad, alr stapled onto the luck draw.

Then Faris and Xueyi went to Faris's house to put down the chocolate. Aishah, Felice, Yumin and I waited fr Halisah (She just onlined hahaha coincidence).Waited for Halisah then Faris and Xueyi came down alr. Waited together opposite school then while waiting, Xueyi had to leave because she was going facial with her mum. Went to TM with the rest but Aishah was "feeling unwell". So she went home. Saw Binny in TM. Went to walk around and texted Binny. Went to Popular > Ntuc > MJ. We were freaking bored. Homed @ 4? I think so.

Went to meet Xueyi and Jasmine @ 6.15 for dinner. I was wearing Fbt and Obs shirt. After dinner, WE WENT TO TAMPINES 1. Xueyi and I looked super sloppy. We looked like we are foreigners then we came down from our hotel rooms to shop. LOL. Xueyi said that. After walking around, Jasmine bought a cake (act nice to her dad) so we left. Went to the inline hockey there and chilled for a long while. We talked alot of crapz lol. Jasmine left @ 9.45 and idk why Xueyi and I kept calling her betrayer. LOL. Homed @ 10!

21June
Woked up @ 9-10 because the aircon was freezing cold. Binny made me worried yesterday. Went to meet Fatris @ 12.30 and I was late. Even though we met @ school side gate bus stop. I reached @ 12.45. HAHAHA OPPS. Was supposed to buy bra today but Binny wasn't free. Aw :( The bras are pretty and sexy hehe. I wna get so many of them, but expensive :( Ok gna stop here. Campz tml, freaking excited! Hope it'll turn out fun. I'll miss Binny!

FREAKINNNNNG EXCITEDDDD!

426

2009-06-18T22:29:00.002+08:00

17June
Sneaked out of the house @ 11 because Binny and I have a date. LOL. Cabbed down to E!Hub. When I reached there, he was nowhere to be found. LOL so I went to the toilet. When I came out, he was there. I was just infront of him, he couldn't see me I think. So big also cannot see ah hahah. It was definitely awkward because idk why. We queued fr tickets and the queue was long. We looked around and avoided eye contact. When we looked @ each other in ze eyes, we laughed. LOL I CONTROLLED MY LAUGHTER DAMN LONG ALR. The counter-woman asked what we wanted to watch and I couldn't stop laughing. SO FUNNY AND AWKWARD. LOL.

Went into the theatre. Btw, the woman gave us a couple seat -.- Kept laughing before the movie starts. During commercial, we were still laughing. LOL you dk how awkward we were. He didnt know it was a horror movie. Until I said.... "My friend say this show very scary leh!". Then he replied, "HUH THIS IS HORROR MOVIE AH!?!?!?!?". LOL. I screamed @ one movie's advertisement. See I am girly one lor :@ Actually I wasn't really that scared. Then he was like quite scared. Which made me scared too. WL. He kept jerking the chair when he got shocked which made me shocked too because the chairs are connected. We didnt want to eat/drink though he bought them because we were too afraid. Ltr we vomit how. Once he drank then he got shocked -_- (1111!) The theatre was full of people. :( Making alot of noises. Cannot stand them. Walked to his house area and took cab home. Tired........... Ok slept @ 3plus and woke up @ 4 to reply Berlyn's message then I went back to sleep.

18June
Woke up @ 9plus and hurriedly went to prepare and went to school. I was late fr an hour ahahahah! Thanks Axel for your WeiTaNai. LOL. We kinda crapped alot because we didn't feel like doing anything. Ok it's because I was talking alot. Aw I kinda miss primary school days. Primary 1 = finger on your lips and hold hands. Good ol' dayyyyz~ Laughed until I kept banging my hand on the table and I have a bruise now yay. Went home @ 1115 because I hate to go home and take the form to pass to Halisah. And when I waited outside school, she wasn't there. WL! You know the weather how hot anot! Went home and called olm to talk for awhile and went to meet Pooqi @ inter.

Waited for quite awhile, because she walked from 201 to inter. SIAO IN THIS WEATHER. Then went to sit at inter because I had time to spare. I looked like an idiot. Ok wdv. Waited for olm and went to talk 18. We waited damn long for the bus. Then when we reached inter, we walked to the Chai Chee CC and guess what? NO MORE ROOMS -_- We took a cab down to E!Hub because the movies tix would be cheap hehe. Watched GOGP but I really wanted Hannah Montana. Olm monster you! Ok, olm cried. I controlled my tears because I laughed @ olm when she cried. Cfm she'll laugh @ me if i cry LOL. Went back to TM and walked around. Saw Jason. Waiting for Claudia and Jiahui while they are shopping. Poor boy. :/ HAHAHAH! Went to have Banmian for dinner and I hvn eaten that since NCO! Long anot! Supposed to watch movie with Binny but he couldn't. So cancelled! Homed @ 7+!

They sprayed the cockroach thingy and my floor's all oily and gross. I mopped it but I couldn't wash them off. And I was super pissed. :@ Fuck roaches! Why do they have to exist! :@

425

2009-06-17T18:48:00.002+08:00

AND I STILL NEED TO WAKE UP 7.30am. WL EARLY ANOT. WHERE WILL ENOUGH SLEEP TONIGHT.

I cant understand you.

424

2009-06-17T17:33:00.002+08:00

So many posts alr! 424 alr! Btw, I read Xueyi's blog and she drank COCKROACH DRINK! EW GROSS. EWEWEW. OH YEAH, she said that I wasn't fat. My shoulders are just broad. Very broad. Went to check out my BMI and my BMI is only... 168cm, 65kg = 23! It's average! Hahah! 56.4kg if I wna be 20. 23 = higher range of average. 20 = lower range! Hehehe or if I'm 60, I'll be elated heheeh!

Woke up @ half past 7 because someone texted me. Then after chatting, he went to school so he couldn't chat anymore. Didn't have anything to do so went to meet Yumin and Sandy fr breakfast. Reached @ 10+. Sandy was late. Lol. Bus-ed down to school area and we started having meeting. After awhile, SLs went off and the excos had to stay because Faris wanted to brief us about camp. We kinda gave stupid suggestions again. LOL IT WAS SUPER FUNNY FR SOME.

We then decided to go and buy the things now so Berlyn accompanied me home to take moneh and they went to market. Chilled for awhile because the weather sucked. Then met Yishian and Pooqi under mua block. Lol they alr reach. I acted model out the lift HAHAHA! (Dk why I won't use the stairs! I told myself to use the stairs! Because if the lift's not there, I would definitely take the stairs! I'm just taking advantage of the lift! :@) K anyway, bought currypuff and I love the mutton rectangle thingy! (L)(L) Met them and went to buy the things alr. Aw mua $ :( I have no moneh for dinner tonight, hahaha. Yeah then walked to Zillah's voiddeck and waited fr Faris and co because we dk what floor Zillah living in. Lol. Then they came down and we slacked fr a-long-while.

LOL I JUST KEPT DECREASING MY HP VOLUME BECAUSE THE MUSIC WAS TOO LOUD. THEN THE MUSIC WAS FROM THE COMP LOLOL HAHHA FUNNY. Ok homed @ 5plus! Super tired. I've been waking up damn early these few days since morning! Tomorrow meeting Halisah and Huahua and Fatris. Then going to meet Olm @ 1plus going Ktv. Lol damn budget one the Ktv. Wdv. Going to clean pee soon, fucking lazy.

So pissed now suddenly, about someone. What's with the ON and OFF. Are guys all the same? Fuck. I've still got to wash the clothes, and wdv, wdv. Fuck. ARGHHHHHHHHH. Don't be fucking misleading, fucking jerk. Don't find me if you don't want to. Don't find me only IF YOU WANT TO.

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2009-06-16T13:59:00.002+08:00

Angel's back in SG! (L)(L)

Slept @ 4++ because I couldn't sleep. Mumsy's snoring! :@ Super annoying. And it rained heavily @ 6. I woke up to close the windows. Woked up @ 10 again because I had to meet Faris and Xueyi for school. Went to meet Mdm Umi and discussed about the campz. I'm super excited! I think it'll be fun though. MrKhian was listening to LoveStory hahaha cute.

Gna run off to meet Faris, Xueyi and Jasmine for cycling! Update later when I'm back!

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2009-06-15T19:09:00.002+08:00

=)HUAYANG(= says:
*-.-
*then i go for wad sia
*benjamin say he dw go
*he say all gal
*which i tink is true
*LOLS!
kel pang ???? says:
*ask him dont bullshit
=)HUAYANG(= says:
*-.-
*he say he scare tio rape
*LOLS!
*slp at where?
*class room?
*LOLS!
kel pang ???? says:
*yeah
*WHO WaNT TO RAPE HIM -_-
=)HUAYANG(= says:
*lata u rape me
*LOLS!
*slp class rm very weird
*-.-
*my bed so nice slp i dw i go slp floor-.-
kel pang ???? says:
*-_____________________-
*WHO WANT TO RAPE YOU
=)HUAYANG(= says:
*U?

Huayang thinks that I would rape him, for godness sake! Gosh! Woke up by Mdm Umi @ half past 9 while I slept @ 4. I couldnt go back to sleep and Faris called me (ARGH). Went to meet Faris under his block and he was late. Then Xueyi came because the stage was wet. We walked to FP because Xueyi was hungry. Lol. It was very funny discussing the details fr the campz hahaha! Xueyi and Aishah was giving stupid suggestions hahah! Then after awhile Cym and Felice came. Then walked to Xueyi's house.

@ Xueyi's house, was kinda tired because I only had 4-5hours of sleep yo! Faris did his email-ing thing while I just sat there. Went to FP to eat. I didnt eat earlier on ok! Actually supposed to go jogging with Xueyi and Jasmine, but Xueyi forgot tt she had tuition. So, yeah, cancelled. HEHE. I was lazy also. How am I going to lose weight :( I wna catch Drag Me to Hell tml! :@

Btw, I dreamt that Sandy, Xueyi and I was walking under a void deck. Then suddenly we saw a group of gangsters and Sunny! Then I went to walk towards them and I said, "Sunny???" Then it was him! After that R and I were following Xueyi and suddenly she turned and said, "Stop following me you two fucking leeches!!!!" I was shocked! Then R and I was holding many stands. We were walking towards idk where in a carpark then we were fixing the stands. AHAHAHAHA! Ok lame dream!

421

2009-06-15T02:55:00.003+08:00

Haven been online since last night. Good girl anot :) Ok, I was just rotting on mua bed watching telly. Hahah! Woke up @ 11 this morning. Stomach cramp fucking hurts. :@ Hate it. And period gives me moodswings too! Annoying. Went to back to sleep till 1. Watched the telly when I woke up. I didn't wna use ze comp. Comp is completely wasting my time nowadays. I rather watch my fave, Telly x33333333 HAHAHAHAH!

Around 6, Sis went down to buy dinner. Lol. She kinda took 30minutes because of her tongue-y. Lol it was funny looking @ her eating. Her priceless expression. ROFL VERY FUNNY. Online @ 1+/2 because Idk for what reason. I wanted to show Berlyn this video, then I started chatting online. HAHA! I think I'm gna offline soon. If he knows I'm sleeping so late, think he will scold. Idk what to do tml :/ When it's school days, I want holidays. When it's holiday, I want school days. AND I REALLY MISS BAND! AND MY LOVELY BAND MEMBERS! :D

BAND CAMP 22-24 OVERNIGHT, FUCKING HAPPY MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. MISS EVERYONE! *SCREAMS AND RUN AND WAVE FRANTICALLY AHHHHHH~*

You sure you don't mind?

OHOH BTW I DREAMT OF SOMEONE BUT I FORGOT. SHALL ASK OLM LATER, OR RATHER, TML CAUSE I TOLD HER MY DREAM. I've been dreaming about someone/thing every night but I totally forgot about them, all the time! >:@

420

2009-06-13T20:02:00.003+08:00

Huahua's back in SG, 3pm. He said that Korea was only so-so. Wtf. Rich ass. Kinda miss him because I have noone to disturb :( But he's back! :D Read below only if you're interested. Don't tell him I blogged about him.

=)HUAYANG(= says:
*wapian eh wan kill ppl sia-.-
*and the rotater-.-
*...
kel pang ???? says:
*aw you scared what!
=)HUAYANG(= says:
*keep spinning
*i scare my shoe fly away luh-.-
kel pang ???? says:
*LOL
*SO GAY
=)HUAYANG(= says:
*keep seeing the ground and the sky-.-
*where go
*got-.-
*is rlly wad
kel pang ???? says:
*HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA
=)HUAYANG(= says:
*if my shoe fly away hw i get bak-.-
kel pang ???? says:
*LOLLOLOLOLOLOLOL
=)HUAYANG(= says:
*behind my idk is wad
*but alot of tress
*lols!
*but fun la

419

2009-06-13T01:23:00.003+08:00

Oh, I forgot to post about my dreams.

Two nights back-
I dreamt that my sister was freaking selfish because she doesnt wna help me to wash my cup. And a bird kept begging me to do a Facebook for it. When I was sleeping, it kept waking me up. I was super pissed.

Last night-
I dreamt of many many people. Hahah! But I cannot remember now. I can only remember Huahua. I kinda forgot it's contents too! :(

418

2009-06-12T23:00:00.002+08:00

Woke up @ 10 for no good reason and starting tossing on my bed because I couldn't go back to sleep. Watched tv, never online leh! :D Shows tt I'm not a computer addict. Wanted to meet WB and WT fr lunch but WB couldn't so didnt. Sis bought lunchie. Once in a lifetime!

Rolled around mua bed till around 3, watched LiaoZai (better not type in chinese, later wrong very paiseh). Love the show to bits Idk why! Went to bathe @ 5 because Sis said tt it was going to rain. She's gna pierce her tongue-y! Tempting me, totally! Bussed down to inter and had Subway. Couldn't finish and I was alr 70% full. We should only eat 50% full only lor! Took 31 to Parkway.

The mall has changed. It's been months since I last went there. Went to Stege and Sis immediately pierced. Without consideration sehhhhhh~ She was scared though. After piercing we left and headed fr Watsons. Couldn't hear what she was mumbering because the guy gave her the numb medicine, plus, it hurt. So I kept 'HUH!?'-ing her till she was pissed. Haha cause I couldn't hear : Wdv. Slept in the bus. Walked home after that. Walking home from the stadium with my sister, the distance felt very long -____-

417

2009-06-11T22:32:00.001+08:00

JESSICA SANCHEZ

LOVE HER VOICE!

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2009-06-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

Met Olm @ &-11 because she was late! TOLD HER TO MEET @ BUS STOP @ 2! :@

Met her and walked to bus stop. See lahz, late fr what. Make me walk more only. Took the bus and went straight to Bugis. Went to Iluma and it's quite funny. As in the structure and all. The escalator was from ze first to 4/5level. Veryyyy long. Olm even ask me if she should sit because her legs were tired. Lame right she! Walked around and it was super boring...... BTW, I WAS STARVING.

Headed to Bugis Street next to buy food to eat, but Olm kept asking me to go look around fr preety clothes! What kind of friend is this! I was starving! Went to walk around, with me grabbing on my gastrics/stomach because I was reallllly hungry and Olm shellfish. :( My best fwen turned into a shellfish person :'( And anyways, walked around and didn't see any clothes we liked 'cept fr bags. The bags were really pretty like mua. :') Went to Burger King and ate. Was super full and on the way back to Mrt, I felt like puking. What's wrong with me these days :(

Tampines Mall and went Cotton On because Olm wanted to get a shirt. Then I suddenly saw the top which I really wanted and bought them. EVERYWHERE IS ON SALES NOW! :D Ok I'm broke now D: haizzzz. I'm an idiot (those who knows, good fr you :D ) I feel really stupid to put so many lame faces LOL. I like can alr lahhhhz. Hehe who cares. Homed @ 6.15! Good girl leh, so early go home. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

415

2009-06-11T12:58:00.001+08:00

Have been watching human singing talents last night! They're really great! Hope I wish I would have their voicey. Woke up @ 11.15am. Early or not! Am forced to go Bugis with Olm. Okie, gna bathe now. Shally updatey tonighty!

414

2009-06-11T00:03:00.002+08:00

Woke up @ 8 because someone sms-ed me. Continued my HK drama till 1 and went back to sleep. Woke up @ 3. Watched tv and stayed under my blanky. It was very cold. Didn't get out of the house today. It is an accomplishment! Have been going out fr the past week. :( I REALLY NEED TO START STUDYING!

Dk if I should meet Olm tml or Berlyn and co tml.
BUT IF I WATCH A MOVIE, I'LL BE POORER THAN NOW!
I've got no more monehhhhz.
Any sponsers? :) I need moneh!

413

2009-06-09T19:11:00.004+08:00

It seemed like I've lost my blogging bug.

08062009
Went to school in the morning for POA and English. And I kinda pissed Cym off because I was pissed. Too bad :p Everything's alright now. Went home and Olm came my house to surf the net while I rest and prepare. Jasmine came over and passed me the guitar then she went to school. Did nothing then when Jasmine and Faris reached, I left home while Olm went home. Faris then went home then Jasmine and I went to TM to have lunch and meet Cym And Charis. Bought cake and I said I wanted 16candles. 3 of them laughed because usually people would want a big candle and 6small candles. Aiyah forget mahhhh.

Headed over to Xueyi's house and we kinda had fun. Soon after, Yuxuan, Sandy and Faris came. Lol. Charis was so mean! She kept asking Yuxuan to keep quiet because the moment he opens his mouth, we can smell the cigarette. Then aftertt Charis kept asking why isin't he talking. Mean or not you all say! Then Felice and Basyirah came. Lol. Soon after, Xueyi and Berlyn came over. When Berlyn came in, Charis screamed/laughed. Lol. LOL. Luckily that didnt give us out. Xueyi thought it was her maid who screamed.

When Xueyi walked in, Idk why we screamed when we're supposed to shout "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!". And Xueyi cried because she was too touched. I almost cried. Luckily I didnt. She opened her presents first because the cake was hard. Someone mentioned that the straightener was bad. WL! Haha nvm. Hope you'll like it! Cut the cake and ate some. Soon Yx left. Aftertt hung around. Awhile later Berlyn, Faris and Aishah left because they wanted to buy Xueyi's present. Some continued playing mahjong and around 5, some left. Only Jasmine, Xueyi, Charis, Sandy and I was left. We did stupid things. Sandy played the piano and Xueyi danced. LOL it was super funny. Jasmine slept. I was just looking around. Homed @ 7.45!

09062009
Decided to give school a skip because I was veryvery lazy. And tired. Woke up @.... Cant remember. I bathed and prepare, while drying my hair, Chunsiong called and he asked if I wanted to give Cym a surprise. Then I said, "Anything". Then met Cym awhile after because I promised her to accompany her to the post office. Called fr Olm as she's going to the bank too. Yeah, then Olm came when we were in the post office.

Told Olm about the lil surprise. So she agreed to help, but actually she was going to the library. Thanks eh! :D Aftertt I told Cym tt I'll be going to her house after I buy bubbletea, and she shouldnt follow me cause she'll faint. LOL. Bought many things for Cym. Spent more than half my pocket moneh on her. Nice or not me. Went many places to find. Lol. Super gay lahz the present. Hahah full of Doraemon items. Went to Mac and just nice Chunsiong just reached. He came @ 1.40pm. We were kinda supposed to meet @ 1. Wdv. It was kinda weird and awkward to me.

Walked to Cym's house and surprised her. Btw, she saw us from her house. Actually I was quite pissed because I really wanted to give her a surprise. And she should have just kept quiet and act surprised. Wdv. She put cream onto Chunsiong's face and they chased each other with cream. I stood there seeing them run after each other. Aftertt we sat down and ate cake. Soon after, she went to bathe as she was gna meet the e3 people + Jamie. Then Chunsiong and I went to watch the telly. We didn't talk. How pathetic. This outcome sucks. She took about 45minutes to prepare. And she wore a dress. I umchioed because it looked like those kind of bbq black plastic bag. Those huge huge ones. LOL. :X Waited for Jamie and he left. Jamie took a long time. Cabbed to inter then homed. Went to NTUC w/ Mumsy as she wanted to get things. Btw, Cym's party sucked, to me.

Don't you know that I still like you? Why cant we be friends? I am always trying to start conversations. Maybe it is you that who is treating me like I'm something. Not the other way round. I was trying so hard in the past, trying hard for you to feel the love. And now, it's nothing. Nothing to you. You were once everything to me. I was trying hard to forget you. I thought I had forgotten you so I stared hard at your picture, thinking if I would have any feelings still. But I started to think of the past and I cried. I thought I have forgotten you. But I have not. Why? Why can't we be the same like the past? This sucks. Why can't we be friends! I hate myself for liking you. We aren't friends anymore. Fuck this shit. dont like you anymore hehe. or, i mean, shall stop liking you alr! THE LIKEYNESS IS DECREASING YAY!

412

2009-06-07T22:31:00.003+08:00

Woke up @ half past 8 because my alarm rang. Damned! Chun went back to sleep and Ze said that he couldn't. Made me wake up so early. What on Earth. Watched my Hongkong dramas from 9-2. Rofl. Momo came and bought donuts and waffle :D I love donuts. The soft soft feeeling inside da bread.

Went to meet Cym @ around 5. Went to buy her mum's dinner w her and bought my heliumy heartshape-d balloon. Miss 07122008 :( Talked alot and played with heliuuuuum. Fun! Cym laosy!

Bus-ed home and went to buy dinner for mumsy. Haha! Am I a filial daughter or what :D

411

2009-06-06T19:26:00.002+08:00

I AM FUCKING PISSED NOW BECAUSE I HAVE ALOT OF THINGS UNDONE! HOUSECHORES, HOMEWORKS, THIS AND THAT. I HAVE TO BUY SOFTENER FROM DOWNSTAIRS WHICH MY FUCKING SISTER DOESNT WANT TO BUY IT AS SHE'S GOING DOWNSTAIRS TO BUY DINNER. ISIN'T IT FUCKING ON THE WAY? FUCKING IDIOT. CAN'T MUMMY GIVE HER THE MONEY TO BUY IT? MUST IT BE ME? JUST BECAUSE I SUCKS IN STUDIES I MUST BE A MAID TO THE HOUSE?! FUCK. I AM REALLY CONTROLLING MYSELF EVERYDAY, BEING STRESS/SAD/PISSED ISIN'T GOOD FOR ME. I HATE THIS NOW. HOMEWORK, GIVING ME STRESS. I FUCKING HATE STUDYING THOUGH I REALLY HAVE TO. IT SUCKS. AND STRESSING ME TO STUDY MAKES ME ANNOYED. I HATE STUDYING. HOW I WISH IT WAS ME WHO FOUND OSAMA OR SOMETHING. SO I DONT HAVE TO STUDY ANYMORE. :@ BAND, GIVING ME STRESS TOO. IDK WHAT TO DO AND I THINK I AM NOT THE RIGHT CHOICE BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS AFRAID TO DO THE WRONG THINGS. AND IT SEEMS LIKE NOONE IS HELPING ME. LIKE THERE SHOULD BE MANY PEOPLE HELPING ME BUT HOW COME I TOTALLY FEEL TT NOONE IS HELPING ME! MAYBE WE NEED A SEROUS TALK. I KNOW ITS ONLY 2 MONTHS BUT 2MONTHS IS ALOT. ISINT TT ENOUGH TIME FOR EVERYONE? IF I CAN ADAPT, WHY CANT YOU GUY ADAPT? PLZ, I NEED SOME HELP. I MEAN ALOT OF HELP. I CANNOT DO THIS ALL ALONE. AND I STILL DK WHY I CANNOT FORGET YOU WHEN IM SUPPOSE TO! YOU'RE LIKE IN MY HEAD, STUCK! I AM SUPPOSED TO FORGET YOU! LIKE OMG, 2WEEKS ALR! 22052009 FOREVER IN MY HEAD. OMG. WHY AM I AN IDIOT! YOU'RE LIKE AVOIDING ME FOR IDK WTF. THEN NOW IM LIKE WORRYING THIS AND THAT. WHY AM I WORRYING ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK OF ME? DONT LIKE MEANS DONT LIKE RIGHT KELPANG! ARE YOU AN IDIOT! WAKE UP KEL! HE DOESNT LIKE YOU BOTHERING HIM! CMON LA KELLLLLL!

YOU SEE! YOU ALL UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL NOW? YOU SEE HOW STRESS OR ANGRY OR ANNOYED OR PISSED I AM ANOT!

410

2009-06-06T18:38:00.002+08:00

如果你是男的，以我的性格和外表。你会喜欢我吗？
我都不会喜欢我自己。所以不能怪你。

After what Olm said, 我现在有点开窍了。Yeah, btw, she said that I am somewhat attractive. True or true? Ok I'm just kidding. I still don't like myself. :( Been watching HK drama when I woke up. 2pm-6.30pm. My body veli nua alr now hahaha. Needa buy softener. Why always me? Jac cannot go ah, -_- chibaiz. I hate doing all these things. Irritating.

409

2009-06-05T23:03:00.003+08:00

Was late because....
1- I forgot to take spare coins so I could take the bus, so I went home.
2- Ng forgot to take her wallet, and she only realised when she reached the bus stop. So she went home, and then walked to the busstop.
3- The bus was slow.

Went to watch Monsters VS Aliens and we reached on the dotz. Hehe, saw Soh. I swear I was laughing my head off within 15minutes. And I was the only one laughing. -_-HAHAH BUT IT WAS REALLY FUNNY! The Buggy died and that part was so sad T.T I didn't cry though. Aint so guniang *gek muscles*. Went home straight after tt. Ng burped when we reached the park then I made the burping sound. IT WAS SO FUNNY. It totally sounded like the burping sound but Ng said it was the vomiting sound.

We then saw many cyclists when we reached the park. (Ah, common). Then I started to think what are "cycling people" called. Then I was like saying, "bicyclelist, bikist". When we walked further, we saw another group of cyclists. Then Ng was guessing too. She went like, "bicycleist, biklist". Then I suddenly remembered and said, "CYCLIST LA IDIOT!" Lol, it was so funny! :D Homed @ 11!

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2009-06-05T17:15:00.004+08:00

Jac's home and she just bought Veet. And I'm gna try it. AHHHHHH IM JUST BE HAIRLESS.
KIDDING.
But she really bought Veet.

Ok, went to breakfast today and Olm and I was late for POA. Went to pass Sims to Khoo and walked around the school because the stair's shutter was locked. Wtf. :@ Poa, MrKhian seems to be in a bad mood, but to say, our class was noisy.

People pontang-ed Math, for Idk wth for. :@ We learnt new things too! Hehehe can't wait for school to open, THEN THERE WILL BE MATH LESSONS AND MORE BAND PRACTICES! Yeah! Gna catch a movie later with Ng. Hehehe! Monsters VS Aliens. Hope my moneh won't go to a waste!

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2009-06-04T18:55:00.003+08:00

I am currently having this lonely feeling now, which sucks so much. Idk why I am having this feeling. It just feels like I have nobody now. Nobody. I always feel that noone is by my side. My heart hurts. I rarely have this feeling. But why, why now? Damn, I hate this. I suck. I still miss you. Why can't I forget you? Screw it.

Nat,
I know how you feel. Everything's just down, right? It sucks. Totally. I doubt you will read this but typing this makes me feel better. I know how you felt. I know how heartbreaking it is. I know it. It happened to me. If I can be living in reality, so can you. I know it hurts. Like totally. Your heart can really feel the pain. Yeah, I felt it too. This is just raw and fresh, and it's so happening. Patience ok? We'll wait together.

I hate this now, like right now. I hate myself. Or am I just thinking too much? Life sucks right now. ARGH I'm pissed off. Feeling so annoyed and upset and irritated and angry and wdv you name. Gosh. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH TYPING CANT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER! Shit this.