Best friends are like diamonds, precious and rare.
False friends are like leaves, found everywhere.
False friends are like leaves, found everywhere.
398
Sunday, May 31, 2009, 7:27 PM
Went to meet Olm, my new boyf, at 4. And I was late again, oooops. Hahaha! She's understanding..... :) Took a bus and went to TM. CottonOn-ed again and we decided not to go in because there was many people. 人山人海！Didn't see Cheryl :( Not fated anymore. Walked around and I treated her KFC. Went to eat the buddy meal because she had coupon.Then we went to this place which sells combs, cosmetics and so on. Bought nail polish and some other things. Yeah! Hehe so in love with nail polishes though Mumsy can get them. Pink! Pink is the sex. Went to walk around in T1 then Olm asked me to try putting eyeliner so I tried. And then there was this girl who umchio-ed @ Me! Olm was cursing and swearing @ her ahahaha! Serves her right hehe. Screw that girl :@ Walked around and was looking fr necklace/bracelet. Can't find any nice ones though.
Homed @ 7 and went to buy sister's dinner. Am I nice or nice :D Ok I kp-ed her alot. I was perspiring! Meeting Huahua tml because we agreed to watch a muuuuvee together! Ok I forced him to because I miss him! I can't watch my Baby to come back from Belgium! <3 Miss Baby! Must go out together when you're back ok! :D
397
1:26 AM
Hate some bitch which always totally piss me off. If you think it's you, then, it's you :)Goodbye. :D
396
12:54 AM
Went to meet Olm @ half past 3. Went to TM and wandered around. Then to Cotton On to buy tops, yes, again. Bought 2tops while Olm bought 3tops. Went to the library to 吹冷气 while looking for interesting books to read. Couldn't find any interesting ones! Borrowed 3 and I've read them alr. Fast or not! Actually I gave up one, the other two I read it halfway. Then I.... don't like them alr because it was self-help! Wl.I hate myself for missing you :@ I shouldn't be missing you at all. I thought I have forgotten you, but I have not. Why can't I? People tell me to take it slowly, but it's totally pissing me off. It's taking so slow. I miss you so much, so much that I couldn't explain. Damn this thing. We shouldn't even be friends in the first place. We're not even friends now. Misleading? Totally. Shit. I hate myself now.
395
Saturday, May 30, 2009, 3:15 PM
http://twitionary.blogspot.com/HAHAHA I HAD A GREAT TIME LAUGHING @ IT. AS IN, THE CONTENTS. SO HILARIOUS AND FUNNY! I had a hard time guessing the word though......... Shows that I ain't a twit hehe.
I still miss you, damned.
394
1:02 PM
Alarm rang @ 3 because I had to give Nat a ring. He wanted to study. Hardworking anot! How I wish I was like him. Couldn't go back to sleep after that. :@ Kept tossing and turning then finally I fell asleep. Btw the weather sucks even though it's night.Woke up @ 11. Watched telly and online. Berlyn's out to Wildwildwet. Maybe gna buy assessments later. Mumsy kept nagging me, how annoying can that be! I hope Dad's not gna bother. I really wish that he'll vanish from our pretty Earth. You dk how much I hate my Dad. Maybe gna buy a shirt or two later.
I shouldn't be missing you.
393
Friday, May 29, 2009, 11:39 PM
He left being a "Goodbye". He always does. Why am I still hanging here? I'm suppose to be forgetting him. Why can't I? Am I being too dependent on him? In the past I was, but now, everything changed. So I should be putting it down. Why can't I? Why! I'm disappointed with myself. :( Everything feels so down to me. I always wanted to talk to you. But do I have a chance? You're so busy with everything, as what you said. You just leave your comp as and when you like, and I'll be an idiot talking to myself. Thanks fr making myself look silly. I always tried starting a conversation, as a friend, but I couldn't. Everything seemed weird/awkward. And you're always not replying me, which afterwards when you reply me, my mood was alr down. I hate being ignored, esp by you. I hate it. I hate it. I still love you, despite me telling myself I shouldn't. It's making me fall deeper, and deeper. Call me an idiot, call me dumb. I know I am. I still miss the past, the old us.YOU.
392
7:58 PM
I shouldn't be missing you at all. But why am I? :( Hate myself for that.
391
7:28 PM
Went to school and we had Big breakfast. It wasn't big @ all. I ate a small serving of rice, a hotdog and a cup of fruit punch. Yes, and a small packet of Milo. And I was freaking full. Hahah my stomach small anot! But how come I still so fat when I eat so little &*#&$)Went to look for people to take pictures and I think I had fun. Paulynn made me cry :( Wl! It started of with a good day and I was moody in the middle :( Paulynnnnn. Then went to toilet fr a few times because I keep forgetting to do what I wanted to do. Didnt get my report book because I failed rofl. Left school and Mumsy went to meet MdmChia. Hehe (deep trouble).
Went to the library because have aircon HAHAHAHA. Looked fr books and saw a "Banana" author. Olm read it so loud and laughed. Childish anot! Wanted to borrow "A boy called it" but it was on loan. Read the chinese one instead and gave up @ page 4. Hahah! Too wordy! Left @ half past 3! Reached home @ 4? Bathed and fell asleep!
390
Thursday, May 28, 2009, 10:37 PM
Up or down? :(
I miss you, alot :(
alot alot alot.
389
10:21 PM
kel says:*un-desired@hotmail.com
*i call the shots
Paulynn 8- says:
*LOL.
kel says:
*im like a firecracker
Paulynn 8- says:
*im like a firecracker
kel says:
*i make it hot
Paulynn 8- says:
*I MAKE IT HOTTTT.
*WOO.
kel says:
*ALL EYES ON ME
*IN THE CENTRE OF THE RING JUST LIKE A CIRCLE
Paulynn 8- says:
*LOL LOL L OL L OL
*CIRCUS LAH.
*CIRCLE.
*LOL
*LOL
*LOL
*YOU LOVE MATHS SO MUCH ISIT?
kel says:
*YES
See how cute Paupau is! LOL! My friend whaaaat, cfm kena influenced by me. HAHAHAH! :D
388
8:41 PM
Was freaking reluctant to go school again. Because of Olm, I went to school. Lessons were boring, early know don't come lor >:( DnT, I forgot to bring my........ drawing which I drew last night, 1am plus. Wow. Smartie mua. Presented and we looked awkward because we didn't know how to explain. I just copied it from the net. Haha!After school, went to hang aroundin the school library, while enjoying the advantage of having the library - air con. Hehe. Helped the guy to push the whiteboard and the whiteboard's leg hit MissZaleha, so I went like, "Ooohmygod". The library woman stared @ me and said,
Library woman (LW) : you were being chase out by.... (not yet finished)
me : huh?
LW : you were from upstairs.... (not finished yet)
me : HUH!?
LW : oh wrong haha.
me : -__-
RIDICULOUS LOR! STARE @ ME SO HARD LIKE WANT MY LIFE -_- Accompanied Olm to market area because they (olm, cym and co) wanted to get stuff fr Big Breakfast. Can't wait to eat Zaiba's fruit yoghurt hehe! Hope it'll be yummyz! :D Homed @ 3. Told Mumsy bout my results, cause she asked. Wl, rofl. She didn't say anything though.
Fell asleep and when I woke up, I checked my mobile to see if I had any messages. And to my surprise, I had 7. 4 from the same person though. Haha she thought she sent 2. LOL. Hurriedly, I went to bathe and met Berlyn. Very rushing ok! Was late meeting Mr Tong. Lol. 10minutes :X Talked fr 30minutes, which I thought he only wanted to pass me the form. Now I know many things. Lol. Dinner @ Maddison and homed @ 8!
387
Wednesday, May 27, 2009, 11:34 PM
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lViRlo1_b1ohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_3MGNVH8qs&feature=related
386
8:02 PM
Super reluctant to go school today, but Olm angry! Lame or not! I super tired canz!Wdv, skip the school part. Homed and played Sims! Actually now boring leh Idk why. Last time like sh0 funz!
385
12:09 AM
I HAVE DECIDED!1- 2bottles of Jappy green tea each day!
2- No sweet drinks! Which includes bubbletea, bottle/packet/can drinks!
3- No sweets!
4- Gym every Sat, hopefully! Or walk a round or two in Bedok Reservoir.
VERY determined to lose weight!
384
Tuesday, May 26, 2009, 10:16 PM
My personality by birth month-Suave and compromising
Careful, cautious and organized
Likes to point out people's mistakes
Likes to criticize
Quiet but able to talk well
Calm and cool
Kind and sympathetic
Concerned and detailed
Trustworthy, loyal and honest
Does work well
Sensitive
Thinking
Good memory
Clever and knowledgeable
Loves to look for information
Must control oneself when criticizing
Able to motivate oneself
Understanding
Secretive
Loves sports, leisure and traveling
Hardly shows emotions
Tends to bottle up feelings
My color- Silvery white
Your personality is blissful and elegant, like the sparkling hue of a diamond. Your friends are naturally attracted to you under social settings (and you are used to the popularity), and you enjoy the attention and keep your guests entertained at all costs!
Meaning behind my name-
You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. You are always cautious when it comes to meeting new people. You definitely have a partier side in you, don't be shy to show it.
383
9:51 PM
I just realised that I can type better with one finger therefore I shall type with only a finger. I mean right and left index finger. Ok two fingers. FUN! (sometimes only)I hate the feeling of missing someone. Damned. So up and down now.
382
7:20 PM
School-ed and band-ed!Bluesea-d after band!
Shall look for my Math file and worksheets too! Hope I'll be able to find them :/
Bluesea was kinda awkward because we didn't talk , as in talk. Only "Hi" and "Bye".
381
Monday, May 25, 2009, 6:53 PM
I miss Angel, Chunsiong, Huayang, Berlyn, Xueyi, Charis, Sandy, all the sec4s. I miss telling Angel everything, gossips during sectionals, getting pissed together, feel like sleeping..... :( She's enjoying herself @ Belgium :(
380
5:40 PM
Went to school and I kinda had fun today. Applies to some periods only. Did not want to go to school tomorrow but Olm got angry. WL. If I suddenly nvr go school, she'll hate me. So I'd better go. Lessons were boring, MsArnita got angry w/ us because most of us did not do the reflection (I'm one of em). Hahah! MrTan's lesson is still as boring as ever. He also damn bhb one lor.Went to Praxis after school but actually Olm didnt want to. Luckily I asked her to go hehehe. Thanks Amalina for getting angry! Hehehe! Grouped with SebasK, JamieK, Olm, and Ama was our
I think I'm getting better alr, though we kinda fought yesterday. I swear I wasn't angry. It was moodswings. :( Damned.
379
12:38 AM
As I was looking fr another picture to put as my display picture, I noticed you and everything just ran through my mind. I thought I have already forgotten you, because I thought. Apparently, I didn't. Everything was still ringing in my head, there was nothing I can do. The more I told myself not to think about it, the more I would think about it. And I totally regretted confessiong cause we aren't friends anymore. I talked to you, but you didn't reply. Is it that you're busy, or you doesn't want to talk to me? I'm, really sorry for bothering you fr the past few weeks. Wasting your money on me, accompanying me for movies, breakfasts. Sorry. It was just a stupid one-sided love. Which wasn't clear. Because you lied. At first. Which totally made me fall deeper. Knowing that it would be harder to come out, I allowed myself to fall. How dumb am I? Tell me. I am suffering now. I am tired. Life was peaceful for me till I started talking to you so often. Why? Am I dumb or what? Why did I start talking to you!? I am not regretting, but I am afraid. I am afraid that I would not be able to come out anymore. Yes, now. Very afraid. I am still falling. Noone is helping me up. I just need to help myself. But I am not strong enough. Help, help me.378
Sunday, May 24, 2009, 11:13 PM
I think I suck. Noone cares about me. Life sucks. My life sucks. I really envy those who are really enjoying life. More of jealous.What really broke my heart? Your lies? Or you?
377
9:33 PM
I tried chatting, as friends. But I couldn't. It hurt me deeply. I just lost a good friend. Fmylife.Conclusion : A male and a female cannot stay as good friends.
376
8:02 PM
Woke up @ half past 12 when I slept @ 6am. Chatting with Berlyn. And An qi is enjoyong herself @ Belgium :( Leaving me all alone in SG.Went to meet Olm @ 3, actually we decided @ 1.30pm but I went to eat and bathe so I finished @ 2.40pm. Bussed and met in the library. Act guai only lor she. Went to T1>TM>T1. Just to buy dog food. Because I didnt had enough moneh hahahha! Poor what. :@
Homed @ 5!
375
Saturday, May 23, 2009, 11:50 PM
Went to meet Berlyn and I missed the bus she was in :@ Cause the message was toooo long and it couldnt load, so I missed it. She tried calling me, but I was calling her. Argh! Reached and went to Cs>Tm>Cs>Tm. Dumb! The queue was freakin' long @ Tm and there were hardly any shows in Cs!Wanted to watch Monsters VS Aliens but the next timing was 2230. So we decided to watch The Uninvited because.... the other shows were..... invited. HAHAHAHA LAME! Went to eat and bought a schedule book. I must be well-organized! And Guoqiang was in the theatre too! With his friends I'd guess. Was covering my eyes cause I was scaredddddd! The ghosts suddenly pop up one you know! Scary anot! Was texting Huahua also. Hahaha guniang. The storylines are quite good I must say. Better than Knowing. -_- Knowing's ending was plain retarded! Like you hehehe.
Went to eat Yakun and I felt like an auntie. Rofl, no youngsters goes to Yakun these days. Their bread are just simply yummy! Homed @ 10!
p/s: FEELING BETTER ALR YAYYYYYYY! I CAN LET IT GO SOON, I BELIEVE!
374
4:18 PM
I'm sad, down.You lied. Lies which made me fall deeper. Which made me getting hurt even more. Why did you lie! Why! You hurt me, way deep. And deep down, I'm broken.
373
3:52 PM
Gna probably catch a movie or two alone. Or w/ Berlyn.This is what you should do when you suffer a setback.
372
1:54 PM
Woke up, tv-ed, online, rotting.371
Friday, May 22, 2009, 8:44 PM
Breakfast, lunch, dinner, movies, shopping, slacking.
Everything just keep ringing in my mind.
Everything just keep ringing in my mind.
370
6:58 PM
I totally regret confessing because...1- I lost a good friend
2- Now, we're awkward
3- Weird, totally.
School was pretty alright today. It's because we hardly did anything! I failed my Math and Physics, kinda expected! But, who cares. Almost cried in class today, because I felt sad, yes again. Ima emotional person. It comes from within right! So I told myself not to cry. Hahaha!
Band was okkk. Huahua came fr awhile. He passed to CYM my file and she paased to me. I went to ask Huahua where he find my found. He said, "In my cupboard". Then I immediately replied, "Why you steal my file? You have a crush on me right!?!??!" Haha miss laming w/ Huahua. I was asked to conduct G.S. and my angles wasn't right. MrTong told me to stand infront of the mirror and practise. Paiseh anot! Play I.S.C. and I think I kinda had fun though we kept stopping. :( But we're improving right! Hehehe! Went BlueSea after band. Tired and sad, but still smiling and all. Homed @ half past 5.
I feel sad because I just lost a good friend. What am I to say? You don't even care when I'm caring so much. Maybe too much. Never loved someone this much before. Feeling so upset now. I really hope this thing is gna end real soon so I can get on with life. 5solid months. Maybe the person whom I posted on #366 was right. No wonder my crush doesn't like me. I suck.
369
2:03 AM
Everything ended. Maybe my love wasn't mighty enough. Maybe I wasn't slim. Maybe I wasn't pretty. Maybe I wasn't nice enough. Maybe I wasn't good enough. It was never a "goodbye". It was always "goodnight love you take care :)". But now, everythng ended. Suddenly. It felt like yesterday was 5th April. I told myself not to cry upon reading it but I still cried in the end. I told myself to be strong, but I couldn't. He was the first one I treated so nice, but this was the outcome. "Never treat any guy so nice anymore", I'll tell myself from now. My heart now hurts so much that it felt like it was broken into two. The past was so sweet to me. P-A-S-T. I'll see my future coming on from now, time to move on Kelly. Believe you can do it. This is just a setback.I still feel very hurt. I thought I've forgot you alr, because I have my friends. But slowly, you came to my mind. I thought it was easy forgetting you. I've tried. But it wasn't. This is one of the millions of one-sided love. Thanks for everything, I really appreciate them. Shall stop crying and buck up. WHY AM I CRYING!?!??!? :@ So angry with myself for being so weak.
Goodbye.
368
Thursday, May 21, 2009, 4:29 PM
Great job Xueyi! (L)Went to school @ 7 (EARLY RIGHT) and after awhile, we headed fr SDC, sadly, with Mrs Oh! We were seated in a sheltered area but with fans and lights. The first one was Xueyi and Co. I could see that she was really nervous! Great job though! There was two guys who sang "Crush" by David Archuleta. I couldnt stop laughing because the singer couldnt reach the top. HAHAHAHA! But their performance attracted the audience :D Yep, the next one I enjoyed was the malay couple who sang a malay song! Dk what's their names, but yea, cool and cute! The girl's voice is those really like singer. Cool anot!
Had tours around the SDC and when we had a little break, I said that I wna go toilet because of SAFETY PRECAUTION. Then MrsOh praised me Idk why. She said, "That was excellent!" I just walked away. Paiseh anot! Olm keep laughing. Wl what kind of friend is this. Wdv lor. Then at the very end, we had this little group work, which is to draw a mascot and reasons why we chose that animal as a mascot. Wtf, Khidir told me to draw a pig, then MrsOh came and "told" me off. Then MdmChia also. I went like, "He told me to draw a pig, so I just draw lor". Then she went to tell MrsOh. I heard it, wasn't eavesdropping, it was so loud. You know how sad/angry I was anot!
Slept on the way back cause I was tired. Homed @ half past 3!
367
Wednesday, May 20, 2009, 11:03 PM
Jasmine called me @ 11.16am. I was still sleeping. .______.Met mua lovely Jasmine because she wanted to pass her tickets to someone. Met @ pineapple and I swear I was sweating. Went to Yoshinoya and it was flooding w/ many people! And she said she will not meet the buyer alr cause she couldnt make it. Wl scam me into waking up so early! :@ Went to Ajisen and ate there. We took a loooong time on deciding what to eat because I didnt know what I wanted to eat. Wl in the end couldnt finish then gave up. Jasmine said I was the only one she knew who couldnt use chopsticks. !!! Wl embarrassing anot! Wdv lor who cares! Went to walk around while waiting fr Xueyi to be back in Tamp. Went to walk around and we were damn bored. Wanted to catch a movie buden too poor. Went to eat Frolick instead! And then came to my house because we really had nothing to do. Jasmine watched her dramas while I played her ds. The games are so addictive! Charis reached so we decided to leave. Waited awhile more because
Walked to Xueyi's house while playing DS. Half only. Jasmine lor, want to play :@ Selfish only. Then we walked damn slow cause she wanted to play fr a longer time. When we reached Xueyi's stairs, I walked damn fast cause I wanted to tell Xueyi it was because Jasmine wanted to play. Then Jasmine ran up you know! We reached Xueyi's door laughing damn loudly and all, and for all you know, her brother was behind us. WL PAISEH SIA! Hahaha, went to Xueyi's house and started Mahjong! I couldnt win and I got angry! Faris then came after awhile. Jasmine and Charis kept throwing the tiles then I got really pissed! They need some anger management course! Xueyi was really lucky because she kept winning! Aw it was definitely just sheer luck. We became angry and bored therefore decided to stop playing! Went to meet Sis @ 8 and went home @ 8.30pm. Should have just gone home, right! Hahah!
366
8:55 PM
I am so angry yet disappointed now because someone just chided me fr not replying. And you know what, I wasnt @ home. But, I was online @ another comp. So, this person talked to me @ 8.10pm, but I didnt reply. When I came online using Xy's laptop, he said, "why never reply?", then I said, "siao, how to reply so fast!" I replied him within a minute. But the comp @ home was online too, which my pm was, "text mua" and I was away. CRAZY ANOT U TELL ME! And I helped him so much. And he said, "NO WONDER YOUR CRUSH DOESNT LIKE YOU!" Wtf is his problem? I've been so nice and willing to help him all the time. Just because of this small fucking not-replying-because-I-was-out thing, he scolded me. How disappointing and angry can this be! :@ He scolded me because I did not reply him, and I wasn't home fyi. Is it my fault? Damned this shitz. I did not even do anything wrong, I didnt even offend him.
365
2:03 AM
I often think I suck. What's wrong with me? Life sucks, the world sucks. I get moody easily these days, sorry to those whom I've offended. Almost cried @ Mac just now, getting way too moody. Controlled my tears though, not gna cry infront of anyone. Stay strong Kelly, stay strong.Meeting mua lovelies for muahjiong tml. Hope nothing goes wrong. I said that I would forget you if exams are over and you didnt text me, but what now? It just didnt seemed so easy for me. I though I could do it, I thought I was strong. But probably I wasn't. Everything's me, all me. Yea, me. I believe I can do it, but when? 10years down? Probably I'll be dead by then. Who knows, maybe I'll die tml, the day after tml, noone can predict the future. I feel pissed at myself most of the times. I think I suck. Alot. I want myself to be a better person, but can I? I don't think it'll help anymore. What's the point when my love for you is so deep and mighty while you don't give a damn? Tell me, plz. I'm just too afraid to ask because I know I would be hurt, eventually. I really want a break, a break from the world. Studies, family, money, everything. I'm just too sick of everything currently. (emotionally tired)
Suddenly, I'm missing you alot but there is nothing I can do, so, gna bear w/ it.
YOU CAN BE STRONG,
IT'S ALL IN THE MIND!
364
Tuesday, May 19, 2009, 11:30 PM
After the KILLER papers, olm came to my house and we onlined! She kept losing in the pet society race so I played fr her and I got FIRST. Hehe twice leh! Then she kept saying, "Go home la, go home la!" Cause she was just pure jealous. Walked over to prime fr manicure and it was closed. Wl angry u know! Waste my time walk there! Ok actually olm more sian, accompany me walk there then walk back hehe. Love me what, rightttt?Homed and online fr awhile. AWHILE ONLY YA KNOW! Then Chinchin say meet @ 5.30pm. I rushed to bathe @ 5.05, hehe, and was late meeting him though. Haha psps. Then we went to buy tickets. And while waiting fr olm, we were kinda awkward cause he seems like trying to start conversations but I didnt wna talk. Hahaha! Waited @ BK fr olm and we walked to small Mac instead, weather veli hot u know! Olm came, went to............ cinema straight I guess. Bought popcorn and I forgot my change. Then the guy shouted, "YOUR CHANGE!" Cause I alr entered the thing, olm went to take the change..... 20cents. It was definitely embarrassing. Watched X-Men fr the 2nd time. Cool or cool. Saggy butt jealous firm butt. There was once when I was very cold, then I wanted to hold Chinchin's bag. Then he didnt wna let me, and I got "angry" with him hahaha! So guniang lor him! Ok wdv.
Went to Mac opposite kfc to slack/eat and I saw Zihao. Hahaha he's so lame! I got so moody because I miss the past and everything started playing like a video. Didnt wna talk and they somehow cheered me up yay! :D Love you guys! Olm had to go home so we went home too! Aw, so early right! 10plus only D: We walked home in my slow speed, and he kept talking and I keep repling "yah", "yes", "uh", "um". Hahaha it was really awkward! Aw he was sucha nice guy sending me till my block! :D Gna bathe soon! I'm tired though I dont wna sleep because I wna online! Ciaos!
363
4:28 PM
As I've said, if he doesn't text me when exams are over, now, everything's gone.
It's time for me to move on,
"Time can heal the pain"
for me, I think I need a longer time.
I still miss the past, those memories.
Definitely will be kept in my heart.
362
Monday, May 18, 2009, 10:07 PM
I still feel very tired despite the 2hour 40minutes sleep, because I am very tired Idk why.Idk what was w me today. I couldnt talk properly. The accent and all. Totally weird. There was once I said wrongly, which I said the bread was "xiong" (fierce), Olm and Jamie kept laughing and I got angry fr awhile. Then when a girl's wallet dropped, Olm and I were talking about taking it (jokingly duh), then I said, "Sekali inside you wu bai kuai (weird tone)" Then she laughed like hell! More than 15minutes I guess. :@
Irritating anot you tell me!
361
7:11 PM
Trying very hard to print the DnT notes but failed. Damned the fuckin printer. :@ Gotten me so annoyed and all, damned! Pissed and irritated. Why is it offline!?!??! Stupid printer. Retarded or not you tell me! It's only 7.12pm yet it feels like 10.30pm. I am feeling so tired now, wonder how am I gna pass through my POA tml :/340
5:31 PM
Am I suppose to be happy because tml's the last day of exams,or should I start to be worried cause our results are gna come real soon....
???????
I am beginning to change, that's what I feel towards myself.
I really want to ask how you feel, but I'm just too afraid. You just don't bother anyway.
I'll text you, no matter what. You just don't bother to reply, or are you just too busy?
359
Sunday, May 17, 2009, 10:37 PM
Met Xueyi and we headed to study. I was so angry because there was a bunch of idiots who stared @ my bra, then one shouted, "PINK LEH!" Damned! One came and asked fr my number, while everyone was staring. @ first I thot they were asking fr Xueyi's number, so I laughed. Buy then not! Xueyi kept laughing instead :( What kind of friend right! :@ (Btw, there were some cute malays there ahhhh)
Went over to Mac and on the way there, they were @ the opposite block. They tried whistling. Bastards. Mac, Alloy came and told me my friend had a problem. I was so traumatized that I cried. HAHAHHAA. Aw too bad. Went to Bedok Reservoir and walked 1round, Xueyi & I chatted alot of things. Hehhee, :) Homed @ 10!
358
Saturday, May 16, 2009, 11:25 PM
I miss everything arghhhhh. How I wish love could be a game, the UPs will be passing the level and DOWNs would be losing the game.I don't mean treating it easily, like a game. But I meant, the internal would be like a game. I really hope it wouldn't end here. :/357
10:39 PM
Read a random person's blog and read bout her camp games, Human Entangled.I played this in NCO. We gathered in a circle then our right hand grabs the person's hand opposite of you. Then we finished unentangled it and there were two circles. It was so fun and funny.....
Aww I miss those days :/
356
9:53 PM
Met Berlyn @ half past 5 and we saw Huiyi on the bus! Fated or what! Decided to eat first so we went to LJS fr dinner. On the way there, we saw Berlyn's brother. She said, "My brother -points @ the guy behind-" Then I heard dk what brother so I just turned. Then he waved, so I asked Berlyn, "MY brother???" With the shocked face. HAHAHAHAHA! LJS, saw Jasmine, Xueyi, Faris and Aishah. Fated or fated .1 Wl Berlyn eat damn slow lor &#%@! HAHAHHA. Then we went to Cotton On. I was freaking paiseh cause I was wearing a C.O. shirt and I went to C.O. to buy another shirt. Paiseh anot you say! Please-d Berlyn to help me pay the shirt, as in Q up and pay (my moneh la duh). Cause later the person say..... "Er excuse me, this shirt? -points to the shirt I was wearing-" WALAO! Damned! Then I'll reply, "er sorry, this is my shirt....." OMG PAISEH LORXZ! Hahah went to CenturyS and walked around.
I spent 30bucks lor! Alot hor! Left 20 only :/ Haiz. I am going fr a crash saving next wk. Hoping to spend only 10! So I'll have all the moneh fr weekends! :) HEHPI NOT~
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3:31 PM
HE COME ONLINE LAST NIGHT! I WAS SO HAPPY, but I didn't know what to chat about :( We chatted fr 5minutes. Haiz, hope this "ignoring thingy" would be over soon, I miss the past. Maybe he's just busy. :)ANDANDAND! I tried to type in standard English, which I gaved up after 5minutes. Hahaha! Okie, I'm rotting now, woke up @ half past 12, early anot you say! Mumsy gave me 50bucks v^^v 3cheers fr Mumsy! Should I go and buy my tops later? :/ Or I should save more $$$? SO many things I wna getgetget!
354
Friday, May 15, 2009, 8:00 PM
Missing someone so much had just turned into tears. Just had a good cry after so long. Haven't been crying fr a long time I'd guess. Everything changed. Maybe it's just studies? Trying to understand. Trying. Like he'll ever care.353
7:53 PM
I feel..... tired.352
6:26 PM
At around going 1, Jasmine called to ask me to go down, SUPER RANDOM. Aftertt, me, thought that she wanted to pass something to me, wore very-anything-down and did not bring my wallet. To know that she wanted to me go TM, we came up and get $. Then mum, scolded and nagged -_-. But, WHO CARES, right? :B Walked to CenturyS and actually Xueyi was supposed to text me asking me to come down half hour ago. But she forgot so they waited fr half hr under my block. Went to CenturyS and bought tickets fr X-Men. Went to TM and lunch-ed . ALMOND SUCKS. Left and went to see my CottonOn shirt. Saw Olm & Ama! Zaiba and Khai also. Then went T1. Walked around aimlessly and went toilet to hang around...... uh. Hahahha. The babies-change-diapers area la. And no, it doesn't stink. Then we went to buy Jasmine's fish stripes and went back to CenturyS! ShopNSave-d and went up to the theatre. HUGH JACKMAN IS MA BOYFFF. Cyclop also ma boyfff. I two timing leh, cannot ah hehehehehe. HOTHOTHOT! Hugh was naked @ 1 scene hahahaha. But he's so hairy! Homed @ 5!
351
12:01 PM
I feel so bored now, I wna go out, watch movies, shopping, wdv you name.I miss going out with you, very much.
350
1:32 AM
Just finished the quiz. And I'm sick, damned! >:( Hate having flu /blocked nose because it totally sucks!Am gna rot @ home tml unless someone asks me out, any takers? Wewewe. Ok kidding only! Hahahaha! Gna sleep soon maybe? Hahaha I feel tired but I really wna onlineeee. :/
Gna savesavesave $$$$$$$$ cause I really need $$$$$$. I wna buy clothes. I just need $50. Anyone wna give me? :)
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1:13 AM
1. Real name : Kellypang2. Nickname : Kelkel/Kali(curry)
3. Star sign : Virgo
4. Male or female : Female
5. Primary school : Poiching
6. Secondary school : Junyuan Sec
7. JC/POLY : POLY
8. Hair color : Black
9. Long or short : Borderline
10 . Loud or Quiet : Loud?
11. Sweats or Jeans : None
12. Phone or camera : Phone
13. Health freak : Kinda
14 . Drink or smoke : No
15 . Do you have a crush on someone : TOTALLY YES
16 . Eat or drink : Both
17 . Piercings : 4
18 . Tattoos : Nah
Have You Ever ;
19. Been in an airplane : Yes
20 . Been in a relationship : Kinda
21 . Been in a car accident : Nope
22 . Been in a fist fight : Yes
Firsts ;
23. Piercing : Ear
24 . Best friend : Olm
25. Award : Pri
26 . Crush : Dk
27 . Vacation : Ma lai si ah
Lasts ;
28 . Last person you talked to : Sis
29 . Last person you texted to : Berlyn
30 . Last person(s) you watched a movie with : Xueyi&Berlyn
32. Last food you ate : Rice
33 . Last movie you watched : Australia
34 . Last song you listened to : Addicted- KellyClarkson
35 . Last thing you bought : Dk
36 . Last person you hugged : Dk
Favourites ;
37 . Food : Many
38. Drinks : Water
39 . Clothing : Anything which suits me
40 . Books : Don't read
41 . Song : Dk
42 . Flower : None
43 . Colors : PINKPINKPINK
44 . Movies : None
45 . Phrase : "huh?"/"irritating-.-"/"serioussss?"
46 . Subjects : None
You ever done before ;
47 . Kissed in the snow : No
48 . Celebrated Halloween : No
49. Had your heart broken : Dk
50 . Went over the minutes on your cell phone : Yes
51 . Someone questioned your sexual orientation : No
52 : Came out of the closet : Nope.
53 . Gotten pregnant : No
54 . Had an abortion : No
55 . Done something you've regretted : TOTALLY A Y-E-S
56 . Broke a promise : Yes
57 . Hid a secret : Yes
58 . Pretended to be happy : All the time
59 . met someone who changed your life : Yes
60 . Pretended to be sick : Always haahhaha
61 . Left the country : Yes
62 . Tried something you normally wouldn't try & liked it : Yes
63 . Cried over the silliest thing : YES ALWAYS
.64 . Ran a mile : No
65 . Went to the beach with your best friend(s) : Yes
66 . Stay single the whole year : YES!!
Currently ;
67 . Eating : No
68. Drinking : No
69. I'm about ton : No
70 . Listening to : Turn it up- Paris Hilton
71 . Plans for tomorrow : Rot @ home
72 . Waiting for : Time to pass
73 . Want kids : No
74. Want to get married : Think so.....
75 . Careers in mind : Animal psychologist
Which is better than Girl / Boy ; BOTH, no comparison.
76 . Lips or eyes : Both
77 . Shorter or taller : Taller
78 . Romantic or spontaneous : Spontaneous
79 . Nice stomach or nice arms : Don't mind if dont have
80. Sensitive or loud : Cannot be controlled by me
81 . Hook-up or relationship : Relationship
82. Trouble-maker or hesistant : None
Have you ever ;
83. Lost glasses/ contacts : No
84. Ran away from home : Nope
85. Hold a gun or knife for self defense : No
86 . Killed somebody : No
87 . Broken someone's heart : No
88 . Been arrested : No
89. Cried when someone died : YES
Do you believe in ;
90 . yourself : Dont think so
91. Miracles : Yes
92 . Love at first sight : No
93 . Heaven : No
94 . Santa Claus : No
95 . Sex on the first date : DEFINITELY NO
96 . Kiss on the first date : No
97. Is there one person you want to be with right now : A Y-E-S
98 . Are you seriously happy with where you are in life : NO!
100 . This is the 100th & last question : Yay!
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12:15 AM
No exams tml leh~ Gna watch Australia later. Hehehe, waste time what! Not tired also.I reaaaaallllllllllllyyyyyyyyy miss you to the max!
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Thursday, May 14, 2009, 4:00 PM
Today we had the Physics paper. Not as difficult as what I expected. Great! Went to KFC with Olm, Cym, and Felice. Crapped alot. And there was this guy who suddenly sat on his chair then he was freaking close and I freaked out and Cmy laughed @ me because I gave a weird face. Saw someone in the bus, great! :/Went to TM with Olm and I regretted lor! (&$!&$*# Should have sent her home. :/ Haizxzxz. Then aftertt, walked around till we're super tired. I AM SERIOUS ABOUT SAVING MONEH. There's so many things that I wna buy!!!! Books, clothes, manymany things! >:( Homed @ 3!
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Wednesday, May 13, 2009, 10:56 PM
SELF-REFERENCESI unit:
Length - m
Mass- kg
time- s
electric current- a
temperature- k
amount of substance- mol
Regular volume:
cube - volume = length^3
rectangular block- volume = length x width x height
sphere- volume = 4/3(pie)r^3
cylinder- volume = (pie)r^2h
Melting:
-A process in which a substance changes it state from solid to liquid.
Freezing:
-A process in which a substance changes its state from liquid to solid.
Boiling:
-A process in which a substance changes its state from the liquid state to the gaseous state.
Condensation:
-A process in which a substance changes fom gaseous state to liquid state.
Boiling:
-Liquid to gas
-Quick
-Bubbles are bored
-Occurs throughout liquid
-Occurs @ a constant temperature
-Source of energy is needed
Evaporation-
-Water changes into vapour w/o boiling
-Slow
-No bubbles were formed
-Takes place only from the exposed surface of the liquid
-Occurs @ all temperatures
-Enerygy supplied by surrounding
Laws of reflection:
-angle of incidence = angle of reflection
Transverse waves:
-Up and down
Longitudinal waves:
-Left to right
345
4:28 PM
Went to school and had our Chem exam, what I can say is 3words....BOUND TO FAIL.
I think the Chem paper wasn't as difficult as I though, but still, bound to fail I'd guess. Came over to my house w/ olm to take books and online while charging my Mp3. While online, she was playing her PetSociety and I was damn bored while seeing her play, I decided to.... still look @ her play. I was pretty tired yet I couldnt sleep because of some disturbance in my house. What if she decided not to take the bolster and decided to take a chopper instead! Horhorhor?
Left house @ around...... 11, went to olm's house and painted my nails while she's bathing. Faster than expected! *ACT shocked* Left her house then we headed to Mac. And I SAW LIANGRONG!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D I was damn happy la. Said hi and continued my work. Hahahah nothing what. Run there and hug him ah. Hahaha. Saw June and Jiamin also. Yep. I think Liangrong is angry w/ me because olm and I kept laughing, and we lept turning to his direction, but wasn't looking @ him and his friends. We were trying to lookout fr the aunty if she's gna chase us out because we're studying. :( Plz dont be angry w/ me :( Left @ 3plus. And I kinda didnt studied because I couldnt concentrate! *&#^! Went to 7-11 because I wanted to get food. Hungry what :( Then, I realised that I didnt have moneh. Olm probably left my 4bucks on the tray, wllllllll!!!!! Then aftertt homed @ 4.
Mummy's comin' homey later on! Wonder what she bought back, wewe .1.1 Gna hit on the gym later with Berlyn, hope she ain't sleeping! Physics paper tml. Which is the KILLER PAPER because sciences sucks though I got 74.5 last year fr EOY. Am not showing off. Gna bathe soon, and maybe chat online! Yep, update tonight! If I have a chancey-di-do-da! Ciaos!
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Tuesday, May 12, 2009, 4:02 PM
I dislike my body.I dislike my tummy.
I dislike my thighs.
I dislike my fatty arms.
I dislike my fingers.
I dislike my nails.
I dislike my boobs.
I dislike my skin.
I dislike my face.
I dislike my eyes.
I dislike my nose.
I dislike my body structure.
I dislike my broad shoulders (how I wish I didnt learn swimming)
I dislike my hips.
I think I'm too big fr nice clothes :/
343
2:34 PM
Olm is beside me now, SO IRRITATING. Want to sleep also cannot -_- Next time I pity her boyfriend. Haiz. Btw, I dreamt of me and her fighting in class. Then she tried to carry me up by the collar. But she failed, then I laughed damn hard. Then I woke up. HAHAHAHA DAMN HILARIOUS. Today was a very tired day. Was supposed to meet Olm @ school fr studying History. But, I just didnt want to cause I was very tired as I studied till 1am plus reaching 2. Ain't I hardworking? :) Hehe cannot to do? Cannot help it right. Haiz. Yea, and when she called me I just kup her phone :X Hehe :/ Cause I was too tired. Yesh. Ps ah, next time lor. She just said, "no more next time la wah piang". SO aunty right. "what the hellll~~". HAHAHAHA. Gayz. Yea, I forgot my thermometer today. Haiz. Should have lent from Xj and PRETEND that I took my temperature. Wl so I went to buy. And as I was telling Claudia that she needs a thermometer or else she would be exempted from exam, I FELL. And olm, who was infront of me, DK WHY LAUGHED SO LOUD. PIG HEAD YI GE. Wdv.
When I read through the paper to check the pages, THE SEQ WAS STALIN. I was hell up hehpi! But when I was doing my plot, I kinda forgot some pointers. :/ Damned! But yea, overall was okkkkk! PRAY HARD I'LL PASS. THANKS
After exam, olm came to my house to watch Twilight. Someone called me "stupid woman". Ok wdv. When it was like 40minutes before the ending, I went to sleep because I was hell bored. Then, aftertt Olm called me WAKE UP. Omgeez, people sleeping so shiok! *&#!&*$^ Ok wdv. So now I'm awake and the goddess is beside me. Gna bluesea later! Soon, after I bathe! :)
342
12:08 AM
Btw, today's expenses.....Drumstick meal - $7.50
Icecream - $1.50
Hotdog bun - $1
Food - $3.50
White fungus drink - $2
Total - $15.50.
There goes my $1.20 for recess a day. Because school the mix rice, egg + kangkong/taogay only $1.20!!!! SHall start my $1.20 tml!!!! Eh no, tml no recess! YESSAHHHHH!!!! But I overshot damn much today cause I totally forgot about mua plan >:/ Damned! Pray that Stalin will come out tml!!!
341
Monday, May 11, 2009, 11:18 PM
Went to meet Jasmine near the stage area @ 2plus, supposingly @ 2 but I was late. Then we went to meet Xueyi @ the busstop then we boarded the bus which Charis was in. Cool or cool. Went to Ikea and ate there. The drumstick set. Yea, expensive leh :( Starded studying and I feels distracted sometimes because of vibrations. Hahaha, but nvm lah. Yesh. Jasmine can be a History teacher I swear. But sometimes she too fierce alr. I kinda find History interesting now. Haha, why is our teacher MissRoss -_- MdmLee sounds more interesting to me, maybe it's just the way Jasmine descibes her teaching. I know about Sta(r)lin alr! Hope it'll comes out tml!!! Pray hard man!!!! Then Xueyi and Charis started taking pictures and laughing all the way lor :( Distract me only :( HAHAHA NO LAH! I think I really studied today! So proud of maself.
Left Ikea @ around 9 and we waited fr shuttle bus. Because the shuttle bus had just left and the interval was half an hour, I wanted to buy my sushis! But when we reached Giant, only the.... 'leftovers' were left. So didn't wna buy them. Left and waited fr the shuttle bus. And I played DS in the bus which caused me to be so giddy. Yesh :( Regretted. I'm even giddy now lor, Jasmine :( Hahahah! Yea, bought the fish strips thing and EGG TOFU, my lover! Homed @ 11!
(I saw 1111, hiakhiakhiak! Ok crap. Kinda not believe in 1111.)
I was just thinking too much in the past, I guess. He's busy, yea he's busy.
340
11:53 AM
How I wish I was born in Australia or America. I just love the place, the people, the houses, the surroundings, the clothes, the bags, the shoes, the school (rules).How I wish I was an American or an Australian model. I love their faces, their sharp facial features, their bodys, their long slim legs, their slim thighs, their flat tummy, just everything an American or Australian model has.
Yah, I'm just WISHING. Fat hopez that it'll come by. The world just sucked to me. Life sucks. Everything is like so stress. Family, money, relationship, friendships. I'm ok w/ my family. But the rest? Uh-uh n-o. I suck @ saving $, when I need them, Idk where to get them cause I'll run out of them. The rest no need to elaborate. Ok ciaos!
(Gna meet
Couldn't sleep last night cause I was doing some self-reflection, then I got so down. :/ I feel so emotional these days. Uh, and sensitive. I don't know why I always think negative. It's just me. Maybe I was just thinking too much? I feel neglected all the time. Am I being too sensitive again? I am ALWAYS sensitive. I can't stop thinking in the negative direction. Everything's just me. I'm just no in your life anymore I guess.
339
Sunday, May 10, 2009, 10:46 PM
Rot @ home fr the whole day and my mind wandered around.SHALL START STUDYING MY HISTORY TML! HISTORY SUCKS!
I really miss you, alot, too much.
338
6:13 PM
Just finished watching Twilight online.Edward's mua baby.
337
2:05 PM
I kinda think you treat me like something. Maybe I'm just nothing to you.336
2:20 AM
I miss you,way too much.
I cannot explain how much I miss you.
Don't think you wna listen either.
I still love you,
miss you much.
335
Saturday, May 9, 2009, 11:33 PM
Went to meet Berlyn at the interchange which I alighted because I thought it would not stop at the inter, and which everyone alighted. Wl, totally cheated lor! End up I took the same 291 again! Went to 2o1 and studied fr 10minutes and I got sad because of something. Ate icecream and left @ 7.Went to meet Xueyi @ inter. Then we went to Ajisen and we took a really long time to decided on what to eat. Ok, not we, is Xueyi. In the end we ate Ajisen. We were really afraid that we wouldn't have enough money despite having 40+bucks. Ate soft shell crab (L) and the ebi fry thing. Haha. I love the taste of the soft shell crab! (L)(L) Left and we went window shopping. Went into Helen and we started trying out hairbands. I think I look weird in hairbands! I look like I have a square head :/ Went around some shops but didn't see anything we like. Went to CenturyS and into this dress shop. Tried out 1 and I think I likey it! :D 18bucks only! Gna buy it during Juney! Shall start saving monehhhhhh. :) Self-motivate leh~
Went to the toilet cause we needed it. LOL. Started taking many pictures, more than 50 lor I think! Xueyi was very skinny today! (Ok wdv. I just posted and when I published it, it disappeared! >:( Now I must retype! Irritating!) Homed @ 11. Huili saw me while she was in the bus but I didnt see her. Aiyah wasted! Could have waved lorz!
334
12:59 AM
http://www.imeem.com/myworldofmusic/music/blkFnJux/tokyo-kosei-wind-orchestra-soul-bossanova/
Sexy to the max!!!!! Listen to the trumpets! Omgeez!
http://www.imeem.com/people/pHRFct/music/AuMUFlH2/ahmad-ibrahim-concert-band-syf-2007-the-golden-circle/
I want to play this!!! :( Like very chio hor the sax solo!
http://www.imeem.com/velovictor/music/BxOfISrB/junyuan-secondary-school-to-the-summit/
Wewe, To The Summit!
333
12:14 AM
Reading the past converations in my chatlog makes me feel emotional. Everything seemed to be distancing away from me. I just felt like it was this way.One more thing,
I feel so tired trying to keep everything up.
But whenever I see you, I tell myself not to give up.
332
Friday, May 8, 2009, 10:43 PM
I feel so proud of myself because I changed my blogskin after one hour. Wl I am blogskin noobz what! :( Haiz. Ok wdv I feel freedom cause I felt so pissed doing it hahahha. Next post is 333 worz, olm's favourite number.Ok, Sis gone to watch muuuuvee, and I felt asleep @ 7 just now, till 9. How am I suppose to sleep later on! And I didnt catch a muuuuuvee =/ There are so many movies I wna watch, but I have no $$$$. *hinthint*
331
6:15 PM
Wanted to bring chicken essence fr someone but didnt because olm said dont bring fr that someone. Aw, cause someone kinda studied till very late then I'm afraid that cannot concentrate today. :/330
4:34 PM
My Math is screwed! Screw Math!!!!!! Damn Math really sucked. Out of 60marks, 40flew away. Suckish start! Mt was okkkk! Was so happy because the comprehension did not open about those lame stuff, eg documentry of plants/animals or wdv. Cause I just dont understand them! Yes. Went to library with Olm and before that, we went to S11 and we took a long time to decide on what to eat because there were too many choices! I ended up eating some porridge and Olm ate laksa, wl eat halfway ask me to exchange with her. Lol. And I gave her my century egg slices because it tasted disgusting. Ew :/ I put all onto her spoon and she accidentally dropped the spoon into her laksa and she went, "WHOOOOOPS!" Wl, laugh until almost die. Even the uncle beside us laughed too hahahahah! Ok maybe he was laughing @ me ._. Wdv la it was really hilarious! Went to the library and searched fr books. Then went TM fr window shopping. Yea, saw a few shirts I really wna buy :/ Any sponsers? Wewe.
Went to Times aftertt and was looking for interesting romance books. I got a little pissed because I couldnt find any that I like!! :@ I want those kind of the-girl-like-the-guy-then-the-guy-dont-like-the-girl-so-on! I likey! Can't seem to find any of those. Can anyone recommend me those kind of books? Or buy for me also can .1.1.1.1 Went to Courts and looked @ laptops and we were so amazed by 1 CD player. HAHAHAHAHA. It's damn interesting btw, we're not suakus!
Homed @ half past 3! Mum's going Mahjong, maybe I;m gna catch a muuuvee later on! :D
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Thursday, May 7, 2009, 8:21 PM
Went to school today. And yes, I was given hell during PE. Damned A. Wtf, gosh. Ok yea shitz. English was rather fun hehe. We won lehHhHhHhH~Skip the rest. Yea MT. Some of us ran out, not me. Yea, got caught also ah. Suey lor! :( Then yea, went to RR aftertt. The Marco so lame! Hahaha!!
Btw, we saw MdmChia during the RR's lunchbreak. And she said.....
mc : you all run out during MT i also know~
me and olm : also not us!
she : so is who?
me and olm : *silence*
she : WHO.
me and olm : we dk leh.
she : if you all dont say then all stay back. *walks away*
Die!!!!!!!!! Wdv la lol. She also knew what happened during PE also. I just quarrelled with Edmund, but ya who cares. Ok everything ok alr. HAHAHHA I FEEL DAMN CHILDISH LOR!!! Wdv la actually I am VERY matured. I just don't show off. .6.6.6 Ok gbye! Tml math, FUCK.
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Wednesday, May 6, 2009, 6:07 PM
Btw, I got verbally harrassed by Hadyu during DnT. Dont wna say the rest, ew.Update/
Together with Isa.
I KNOW SHIT ABOUT MATHHHH!
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4:08 PM
Hello! I don't feel that sad anymore. Idk, hahahaa. Went to school and I felt damnnnn sleepy! SLept @ 2 last night. Ohyah, it rained last night. Ok early morning, like 5? Wllllll why cant it rain like....... 12am!?!?!? When I going to wake up then rain! Irritating! Came home after school and went to market area w/ Olm. Am very tired now. Lack of sleep dude! Yep, but I'm going gym later. Hahah and yea, hope Berlyn is not sleeping :( Haha everyone's tired!!!!!!!!!!!! Exams coming! :<
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Tuesday, May 5, 2009, 10:14 PM
I am not giving up so easily, because I still love you, way too much.235
9:20 PM
I didnt want things to be ended up like this either. What did I do?
Will I end up like N?
Suffering so much.
Is it me? My fault?
I just wna know.
I really miss you, alot.
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8:12 PM
STEP ONE:Spell your name with songs.NO, lazy hahahahah.
TWO:
Name: Kelly
Birth date: 7th Sept
Nickname(s): Kaili, Kali(curry)
Eye Color: Black.
Hair Colour: Black and brown!
STEP THREE:
The shoes you wore today: School shoes.
Your weaknesses: Being weak emotionally.
Your fear: Losing someone.
Your perfect pizza: Hawaiian!
Goal you’d like to achieve: Good grades.
STEP FOUR:
Your best physical feature: Everything of me!
Your bedtime: 12-2?
Most missed memory: Secretz.
STEP FIVE: This Or That…
Pepsi or Coke: Coke!
McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonald!
Adidas or Nike: Adidas.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: None.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla!
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappu!
STEP SIX: Do You…
Sing: YaDance: No.
Take a shower everyday: OBVIOUSLY!
Have a crush: DEFINITELY!
Do you think you’ve been in love: Yes.
Want to go to college: Not really, want also cannot get in!
Want to get married: MANY YESSES!
Get motion sickness: Nope!
Think you’re attractive: YES HEHEHE.
Think you’re a health freak: Nope, but I hate being dirty.
Get along with your parents: NO. =/
STEP SEVEN: In the past month…
Gone to the mall: Nope.
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Nope.
Eaten Sushi: Yes just now, 3plus! Salmon maki hehe.
Been on stage: Yes!
Gone skating: Yep!
Made homemade cookies: No.
STEP EIGHT:
Age you hope to be married: 20
Numbers of Children: 2
Describe your Dream Wedding: Honourable.
What country would you most like to visit? : America, and learn their English.
STEP NINE: In the opposite gender..
Best eye color?: Black.
Best hair color?: Black.
Short hair or long hair?: Wdv.
Height: Not any shorter than me.
STEP TEN:
Number of people I could trust with my life: Olm.
Number of CDs that I own: None.
Number of tattoos: Nope.
Number of piercings: 4.
Personal Quiz:
Who were you with yesterday?: Friends.
What woke you up this morning?: My mobile's alarm.
Where are you?: In my home?
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?: I hope so!
Do you like anybody? YES.
THE PAST :
Ever thrown up in public? Obs hahahhaa.
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW?: Where he is/what is he doing/how is he etc.
THE FUTURE :
What kind of home would you like?: Anything, as long as it is cosy to me.
What do you want to be when you grow up?: Animal psychologist.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years? : Slacker :/
IN GENERAL:
Do you like candy necklaces?: No.
When was the last time you fell over or ran into something?: Cant remember.
Do you listen to music every day?: YES!
Do you still go trick or treating?: Nope.
What was the last thing you ate?: Sushis.
Are you a fast typer?: .1.1.1.1.1
Whats your favorite type of soda?: None. I prefer non gassy.
Have you ever moved?: Yep.
Have you ever won an award?: Yaya! For being the cutest.
Are you listening to music right now?: Yes, Ijimae.
How long ’till your birthday?: 4months 2days! Presents presents come rollin' in!
When were you the saddest in your whole life?: Now.
Do you use ebay to buy or sell?: No.
Who makes you mad?: Noone.
Have you ever heard a song written about you?: Nope.
Something you want to happen in 2009?: I don't really know.
Summer 2009?: HATE SUMMER! WINTER! WINTER!
Honestly, do you miss 2008?: Er..... No.
HONESTY SECTION
1. Honestly, what colour is your underwear? Secretz.
2. Honestly, whats on your mind? Where he is, what's he's doing etc.
3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? This quizzy.
4. Honestly, have you done something bad today? Aint doing bad things.
5. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Jac.
6. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now? Nope.
7. Honestly, what makes you mad most of the time? Unreplied messages!
8. Honestly, do you bite your nails?Nope, later my nails ugly :(
9. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder? Think so.
10. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very moment? YESYESYESYES!
11. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret now? Kinda public alr.
12. Honestly, do you have a friend you don’t actually like? Hm.. dont think so!
13. Honestly, are you in denial? Nope!
14. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? Of course not.
15. Honestly, do you like anyone? YAYAYAYAYA! YESSSS.
16. Honestly, does anyone like you? Duh, Olm .1
ANGER SECTION
1. What do you do when you’re mad? Get super pissed off and mad.
2. What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad? Scold innocent people :/
3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Dont think so.
CRYING SECTION
1.When was the last time you actually cried? Last night.
2.Ever cried yourself to sleep? Fell asleep eventually.
3. Do certain songs make you cry? Yes, many!!!!!
4. What usually makes you cry? Anything which makes me emotional.
HAPPY SECTION
1. Are you usually a happy person? Depends on my moooood.
2. What makes you the happiest? Friends!
3. Do you believe in yourself? Not too sure :/
323
6:09 PM
Looking out for you during recess everyday, felt happy by having a glimpse of you.
I sounded like a pervert, but I don't really care.
322
5:16 PM
Why did things ended just like that? I thought we would be good friends, forever. But now, I'm 101% nothing in your heart. I thought you cared for me. Prolly it was all just about my thinking. Everything is all about me, ny wishful part of thinking. Why am I so dumb and stupid? Allowing myself to fall deeper in this situation when I alr know what would be the outcome. I really want to leave but I just couldn't bear too. I know I have too. If I don't let it go now, when can I? It's really getting too deep. Everything thing I do, I would think of you. "What are you doing now? Have you eaten? What if you're hungry?" Many questions I asked myself. But I don't think you care. I've tried really hard to carry this on, myself. I don't see you trying either. You just don't care how I feel. I shall just continue trying even harder, I'll decide again in the future, when I have fallen deeper.
Cried last night because my heart really ached. I finally experienced it. I have never been hurt before. My heart was really painful. I felt it aching. I was really sad. Obviously you dont care/bother how hurt I was. And dear N wanted to commit suicide. My crying because worse because I imagined dear N committing suicide!?!??!?! Plz, dear, dont. I can really imagine N committing suicide. And I was hell scared. Please, dont. You shouldn't. You're just 15 coming 16. N even planned a date to leave the world. Same as me, we hated the world. We're sick of everything in the world. BUT I AINT DYING. I wna experience true love.
I just can't put it down.
321
Monday, May 4, 2009, 9:05 PM
I think life is very unfair because we don't get the things we want. Why do people always "want this want that"? Shouldnt it be "need this need that"? Apparently everyone is WANTING everything. Wanting needs effort. Stop wishing that things comes by when you WANT it. See ah, WANT to be slim must exercise, WANT to become smarter must study, WANT to be pro in saxophone must practise. SEE! WANTING needs effort. And not everything you NEED comes by. And you must categorize in the correct group. If you have a comp, you DO NOT NEED a laptop. You just WANTS a laptop. Btw ah, life is never fair.
Swine flu is spreading around the world and soon, it'll reach Singapore. Or isit reach alr ah? Ok wdv. I want school to stop! Everyday is homework, homework and more homework! Even though I dont do them, I just get stressed up! This is so irritating. School sucks, life sucks, the world sucks.
320
7:32 PM
Guess I'm just weak, as what Xueyi said.319
6:17 PM
Hello. School was totally retarded today because I was friggin' tired. I slept @ 2 la cmon. I was so enthu with the tv programme! DUring SS, Ama knocked my table when I half 3quarter asleep and I got really pissed and shouted like a mad bitch, not to her of course. But I was really pissed! I hate it when people wake me up when I'm all tired and half asleep. Sorry Ama! Then yea, I couldnt tahan and I kinda really fell alseep, yea, fr 5 pathetic minutes! During MT, I self-volunteered to read a passage. And I couldnt stop laughing because I felt it was so funnnnnny.
Had my English oral during English and I got only a 9. :/ My English is getting bad to worse! Hmpfh. Did my math hw wor! Heh free period after my oral. Cause I was first, wl I stress lor! I read halfway I laughed! D: History was damn boring, as usual. Copied notes only. Cme was fun! Sebas was freaking irritating lor! Keep asking questions and obviously I didnt want to answer. And he kept putting his leg on my chair. I told him not to nicely, but he still put, and accidentally kick. Until I shouted, "GUAI LAN AH!" Then he put his leg away, wewe.
Went to have prata with olm and homed @ around 4.
(HOW COME I KEEP ASKING PEOPLE TO GIVE UP THEN ME MYSELF CANNOT HUH!?!?!?!??!!??! I FEEL THAT IM FREAKING USELESS LOR!!!!!)
318
Sunday, May 3, 2009, 4:04 PM
Freaking cute right omg! I wna visit China when I struck rich. I wna learn animal pyschology cause I wna communicate with them. Then can know what they need/want. Cool or cool huh. Esp when they are so adorable. :):):):):) Just like me, then we can communicate well. I want to be a panda lor! :( I wna work in the zoo in the future. Hahaha. Excited! Anyone wna visit the zoo with me? :/ Plz? Hehe.
Momo came @ around 12 and she bought eggtarts. Hehe. I kinda spent my day rotting. Haiz. I always waste my time but I just cant get myself to study, what's wrong with me ^%!$^!&%$! I wna go gym but noone wants to go, Berlyn is considering. Haiz. I want to lose weight! And keep fit! Ok gbye, gna chat.
Nat, please dont be sad :( *hugs Nat!* Can cheer up alr right now, since she shows some concern at least! Yea, dont be sad anymore ok! *Hugs Nat!*
317
11:44 AM
I miss the movies we caught together,I miss the bus rides we sat together,
I miss the meals we had together,
I miss eating breakfast together,
I miss texting you in night for hours,
I miss talking to you online for hours,
I miss you.
316
2:26 AM
Maybe I was thinking too much in the past. Yep, I should be optimistic like I always tell people to do so. Lol how come I always advice people to forget the person etc but me, myself, cannot seem to do it one huh!?!??!?!?!??!!? Haizzzzzzz. Nvm. Chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi.
315
Saturday, May 2, 2009, 10:43 PM
I still love you, for who you are.314
5:15 PM
Rafi told me to persevere, and tolerate now. He told me to be patient. And ignore everything. But, can I? I'm really tired.Update/
I BELIEVE I CAN!!!!
313
Friday, May 1, 2009, 8:40 PM
Hello. Heh, yep. Ok I'm bored. Happy today. WEWEWEWEWEWEWEWEWE. Don't tell you why. .1.1.1 (I hope we'll be back to the same)
312
2:09 PM
I am feeling bloody guilty and sad and wdv you can name now. Profile
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